A thousand words UNSAID

Healing .♥

2010-05-24T05:14:00.000-07:00

Isn't it strange the way that silence screams

The quiet shatter of broken dreams

Lost inside this empty space

Tears alone roll down my face

It's strange the way the darkness folds

Through my heart and into my soul

Pools of tears that never dry

Years of asking myself, why.

But you can't change the past without changing who you are

Time won't take away the deepest of scars

It's funny how you find a way

To keep on moving everyday

When you're swallowed by your fears

When the numbness takes your tears

Now you're heart's become so jaded

What's left of you has slowly faded

Like smoke that still hangs on

When the fire's all buy gone.

And you can't change the past without changing who you are

All your running away won't get you very far.

If you can't forget, and you know you can't forget.

that was my poem. i've been feeling emo lately. sheesh.

anyways, man i found out something upsetting today.

those who have the link to my p.blog u can read it there.

as to those who don't..well too bad :P

anyways, i gotta go now.

promise to update soon.

toodle ~

Fatin.♥

HI HI HI ^^

2010-05-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE :D

sorry i've been missing.

well the correct usage of word would be vanished.

but neeh, vanish is so...classic.

i'll choose missing ^^

anyways, i havent been well.

no i'm not sick.

i'm just...well. idk really know whats wrong with me >.<

anyways, i wanna say thank you to Atik and Muhd.

so thank you both for cheering me up ^^

i love you both. wait no i take that back,

i love ATIKAH ^^

*hugs atik only *

Muhd doesnt deserve to be loved :P

haha. jk.

ahh. i've missed blogging.

no actually i just miss talking abt myself :D

haha. neeh, i'm not self-obsessed like SOME PEOPLE ^^

if you know who you are. good .

it would save me time and breath to actually tell you.

and i'll just love you even more if you figured it out on your own.

and admit it. heh.

oh well i gtg go now >.<

i will update soon ^^

Love; Fatin

p/s: i miss him already. go online damn it! >.<

done.

2010-04-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

I'M DONE PRETENDING THAT I'M OKAY.

oh,look at that

2010-04-04T07:52:00.000-07:00

LOL ^^

i found this and i kept laughing. idk why.

weird.

this one is cuute too.

haha. anyways, thank u izziyanah for the pictures. they're adorable. ^^

i like the last one best, (:

and you with the brown beg, looking at me with those cold eyes that bore into my soul, yeah, read that you ass. -_-

hmph. well then i'm off to bed. i'll update soon (:

Hello ^^

2010-04-03T07:23:00.000-07:00

OH NO.

Atikah just called me sayang :P

haha. anyways, Good, uhh, night people?

haha. i just got home after a very delicious dinner ^^

Eventhough bro's birthday is tomorrow, we had to celebrate it today.

as Sis B will be busy. -.-

anyways, idk, i'm just out of my mood today.

i feel so grumpy.

and i feel so crappy . -.-

i hate days like these.

anyways, Novo and Izziyanah called me O.o

Shocker. havent heard from them for a while.

but they called me.

The say they've missed me.

how sweeet ^^

i miss you guys too.

hmmm. anyways, Novo was talking to me about clothing lines.

haha, duuuude,i am surprised that you're not a gay :P

nonetheless,i miss you too :(

And of course you too Izziyanah ^^

keep in touch will you guys?

i know i havent been there much, especially after both of u have gone through.

just hang in there okay?

i'll always be here if u need anything guys ^^

Anyways, M is sick.

poor him :(

So is Atikah, what is everyone getting sick nowadays? :(

Anyways, GET WELL SOON M & ATIKAH ^^

and ATIKAH,I MISS YOU!

come back to Singapore soon , okay?

i soo need you here right now, :(

alright,i gotta go.

Mum says i spend waay to much time on the laptop.

and she says that he's a distraction.

he isnt even online xD

oh,P.S; i have a tumblr ^^

Night people.

Much LOVE;

♥Fatin.

hah

2010-03-30T05:55:00.001-07:00

Should i say sorry?

No, hmmm.

I dont feel sorry at all.

face reality

2010-03-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's your mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

i miss these old songs. and singing them at the top of my lungs. haha,

yeay yeay yeay~ (:

2010-03-20T21:03:00.000-07:00

MORNING PEOPLE :DD

Apparently,i woke up on the rights side of bed today. heh.

I slept at about 1.30am. and no, i woke up at 9.30 ^^

see what i mean?

haaha. anyways, HOLIDAYS ARE NEARLY OVER PEOPLE.

sheeesh. that fast? nevermind,i still cant wait for tomorrow. ^^

HAPPY ALMOST TWO YEAR 6J ^^

I LOVE YOU GIRLS ♥

I miss Lyza :(

oh well, hmph,my lost i didnt get to see her the other day.

anyways. oh crap. i gtg.

i'll update soon people ^^

♥ 내 생일 축하합니다 ^^

2010-03-20T03:31:00.000-07:00

ARABIC; عيد ميلاد سعيد لي

BULGARIAN; Честит рожден ден за мен

CHINESE; 生日快乐我

CROATIAN; sretan rođendan mi

DANISH; Happy Birthday til mig

GREEK; Χρόνια πολλά σε μένα

HEBREW; יום הולדת שמח לי

HINDI; खुश मुझे जन्मदिन

JAPANESE; 私にハッピーバースデー

KOREAN; 내 생일 축하합니다

RUSSIAN; С Днем Рождения меня

MALAY; Selamat Hari Jadi Kepada Saya

ENGLISH; Happy Birthday to me.

hahaa. okaaaay. that was weird ^^

but soo worth it. haha.

Anyways, YEAY~ I'm fifteen.

yes, finally fifteen.^^

wooo meee~haha.

anyways, THANK YOU ALL FOR THE WISHES.

THANK YOU ; NurFathin Atikah,Nazeeha Ayuni,Dzulaikha Ramle ,Nazri,Syahmah,Muhammad Ibnunordin,Dian Raihanah,Nureen Diyanah Nadhirah, Nur 'Atira, Faten Nurfatiha, NurFa'iqah, Fatihatul Insyirah, Basithah,Ahmad Hafiz, NurNajihah, Mummy and Daddy, Umar,Anuwar, Kak Airun, Mak Long, Diyanah, Nurfadhilah Abu Talib, Nurul Hidayaa, Syiqa Amore, Zakaria Sulaiman, Abdullah Ahmad, Filzah Geeky, Yasmin Nabila, Fituwiie Rossmann, Rushdy Ariff, Eemah Ariel, NurulHuda, Izza Haziqah, Siti A'isyah, Subwana Amor, Az-Humairah Basri, Shazaa Amran, Thalhah-Kamaruzaman, Afeef Kalmy, Thoohiroh Alpan Masuri, Sarah Hanafi, Siti Aminah, Zee Favre, Eleena Ismail, Auryssa Perez, Amirah Surani, Areyp Peyar, Adawiya Sazali,

Siti Munawwarah, Shahirah, Siti Najihah, Azlina, Nurul Faiqah, Nurul Iman, Nurul Asyiqin, Nabil Rahmat, Huda, Syakir , Fathona && Elliyana ^^

Thanks Mummy and Daddy for the present, i got a camera btw, a PINK camera. haha.

ooooh and thank you family for the birthday song and ice-cream cake ^^

I had a wonderful today.

oh. all thanks to that someone ^^

if you're reading this,

then good. haha, but i still hate u ^^

alrighty,i gtg, will be going to dinner now.

Earl's Sweensens here i come ! ^^

Kangsamnida everyone!

Maybe things are different this time.

2010-03-16T03:36:00.000-07:00

Sheeeesh,

idk wth is wrong with me.

Lately i havent been in the mood for anything.

Even texting "crush-ie" isnt helping that much.

I know, how can that even be possible?

but i wouldnt say texting him isnt any fun at all.

it is :D

gosh, why does there have to be a holiday?

whats the point?

i wanna go back to school NOW. hahaa,

okay i know, thats a lame reason and also WRONG reason to go to school.

Buuuut,i really do miss my friends.

and come to think of it, i actually do miss my classmates and "learning" haha.

Seriously. i dont know why though.

I guess this year...i have changed.

ehh, who knows for the best or not right?

all i know is that being stuck at home sucks.

BIG TIME.

i have nothing to do.

okay thats a total lie, i have ALOT to do.

but those involve "studying"

and the word studying does not apply in my dictionary :P

But you know what always get me trough the day?

Reading new story books everyday :D

ohh, and "crush-ie" texting, hell, he makes me feel happier every time i talk to him.

is it even possible to like that someone a whole lot more than you already have?

this feeling is scaring me O.o

i dont want this to happen.

i dont wanna like someone,put all of my hopes on him, trust him and then what?

poof. done. broken up. history.

that leaves my heart scattered, smashed into smithereens .

and everyone's right, even Ustaz A, "why do we have relationships at this age?"

he's got a point, god i never thought i would ever agree with him xD

but yeaaah,i do now.

maybe crushing on someone isnt that bad.

i mean it is just a random crush right?

and you know what sucks the most abt liking someone?

Is that whenever the guy is around you tend to be something you're not.

You clamp your mouth shut.

You're afraid to be yourself.

and whats worst?

When you get heartbroken and cry.

*sigh*

how is it that love can be the most awful yet magical thing in this world?

haha. pfffft. okay i am sick and tired of talking abt love.

guess what? 4 more days!

4 more days till i am finally fifteen (:

gosh i cant wait.

i am sick and tired of shaquille and nabil pointing out that they have received their ic's -_-

sheeesh,

but i am grateful for one thing.

my birthday is during the holidays :D

how awesome is that?

tkleh kene sabo xD

ahaah.

hmmmm. oh well,i gtg now.

need to get ready.

사링해요

Fatin

Long time

2010-03-14T01:06:00.000-08:00

Honestly, i'm tired of blogging

haha.

seriously, i have nothing to blog about.

and the things i want to blog about are waaaay to private to be said here. -.-'

Hence...i was thinking of stop blogging. but who am i kidding?

i cant.

i need a place where i can vent out anything i feel like saying here.

*sigh*

so what have i been doing?

well lets see.

i feel in love all over again with some guy,

then fell out of love with him.

and now i'm in like with this other guy,

it feels like a random crush.

well i think it is.

anyways, he's still hung up on another girl.

geez.

thats how i've been doing

oh and my studies?

apparently i did better than last year,

ah-mazing,

i didnt even put effort in it.

sheesh.

and my bestf?

he's gone.

i think,

idk. we're always fighting nowadays.

its just not fair :(

i miss him.

and lastly 6J.

wow. thats the only good thing that is going on in my life right now.

22nd of march.

thats our 2 years of friendship.

and yesterday was my 5 years of friendship with bestf.

hmph. he forgot, figured.

and gosh 6 more days.

6 more days till i am finally fifteen.

but here's whats bothering me.

how come i'm not happy?

CA1 -______-

2010-02-20T18:51:00.001-08:00

TESTS .

Ughh. How i loathe them.

you know what i detest the most?

when you get your paper and some of your friends will ask you what you get. hahs.

i dont detest it,but..well,i dont like it either. hmph.

i dont know, its hard to explain. hahs.

anyways, wow, has it really been a month since i blogged?

yeah,it has. wow.

hey! exactly, well not really EXACTLY, a month from now,i will be turning 15! (:

problem is...i dont know what i want -.-'

gosh. anyways, hmm, back to my tests.

ughhhs. WHY.DO.WE.HAVE.TO.TAKE.TESTS?

It's soo troublesome . hmph.

and worst i have physics tomorrow .

well,i gtg. need to do some studying.

hahaa. naaah. me? study? lol. i dont study.i read :D

사랑해요

Fatin

HELLO?

2010-01-31T06:23:00.000-08:00

HELLO PEOPLE ~

ahhh. how i've missed blogging.

hahs. soo not.

lol. i am beginning to think whatever i type abt here is not safe anymore -.-'

there are still backstabbing littel b's and a's.

its just annoying.

anyways, hows life?

well let me see, nowadays life seems to suck.

like really sucky -er than usual,

hahs.

i give up. on what you may ask?

everything.

life,love,friendships. school.

*sigh*

dont ask, too many painful things have happened.

and its only jan!

i dont know how most people handle their problems..

but i just cant seem to handle mine.

everything is just screwed up.

and i feel more crippled than ever,

i miss what i used too be.

soo happy and couldn't care less what anyone thought of me.

i just wanna be happy again,like that kid.

to smile when i see rain.

to laugh easily..

okay,some of you must think i'm nuts by now, but hey, i used to smile when i see rain.

i love the rain,now..i just feel gloomy whenever it rains.

growing up sucks.

good news out of all of this,i'm starting to write poems again.

ooh. and i'm starting to pay attention in class again.

well except for m.hadith and physics. hahs.

cant really blame me -.-'

i just cant pay attention when Ustazah F and Mr I teach me.

anyways, other than that, school's okay,

and ufff,i'm beginning to not like my new classmates that much..

some of them are okay, others?

well lets just say i'd rather dive in a lake than be classmates with them

well. if some of you new classmates feel the same way as me, then thank go the feelings mutual.

oh ,i know,i can be such a b. but thats just me.

hmmm. anyways,i gotta go. need my rest right?

oh great tmrrws feb -.-'

You Know You Love Me;

Fatin.

S . W , A , C ! :D

2010-01-02T07:32:00.000-08:00

yeay! i cant wait for this freaking episode!(:

LIKE FINALLY!

haha.

Anyways, HELLO PEOPLE! :D

seriously,how long has it been?

nearly a month since my last post?

hah. sorry people, just havent been in the mood lately.

and and,basically i was too lazy to type. :P

Anyways, my holidays was okay...i guess.

i went out with friends, especially the ones i havent gone out with for a year or so.

But saddest part is?

Didnt get to go out with Aji and Syakir like i used too.

Gosh,i miss them.

hmmm.

OMG, SCHOOL STARTS THIS MONDAY!

this sucks. i dont really like my uhm..classmates?

its not that i dont like them,just i'd rather not have some people in my class.

i mean theres just awkwardness.

M says i never am happy with this kind of stuff -.-

how mean,

anyways,i'm still happy to see my other classmates. S2C09 are still together!

heh. love them soo much.

ohh.i gotta go. its my turn to wash the dishes XD

Much LOVE;

Fatin

CLUCKING CHICKENS -.-'

2009-12-06T02:51:00.000-08:00

OMG! BEAST!

what happened?

You guys used to look good and dance good,

wth was that?

clucking chickens?

Seriously...and JunHyung.

oh JunHyung..why does he have to copy what TaecYeon does when he raps?

and to think he copied GD's hairstyle.

ahh. whatevs,their just rookies.

things will change, but the song is nice.

the choreography?

Bleeeeeeccccchhhhh -.-'

they did soo better in BEAST IS THE BEST and BAD GIRL.

goshh.

haha.

sorry havent been blogging much people.

dont feel like it, and well, i've been korean boy band crazed.

haha. so no time for blogging(:

sorry. but if you honestly must know.

HOLIDAYS ARE BORING

haha. except netball training.

that ROCKS.

anyways, i cant wait for my class outing with the girls on 9 dec.

GOD I MISS YOU ALL SOO MUCH!

[not that i dont miss the guys, but hey, their girls, they matter more. sorry guys ;D ]

Anyways, i have been going to tahfiz and and training for the past few days.

OOOOH! i also watched NEW MOON.

God, JACOB's HOT!

lol. anyways, i felt bad for Jacob when Bella chose Edward

but seriously,who would choose Jacob over Edward?

NOT ME!

anyways, the ENDING SUCKS!

really! it does!

but what do these producers get for making movies like these?

MORE MONEY!

More suspense = more viewers

More viewers = more money.

pffft. smart people.

hah. anyways,i recommend you guys watch it.

its actually quite fun.

especially the werewolves.

i love the part when they transform.

SO cool.

haha(:

Anyways,gotta go. Need to study -.-'

Ughhh. curse you bad grades .

Much LOVE;

Fatin.

P/S: HE'S COMING HOME NEXT WEEK! well tuesday to be exact (:

misses.

MONTHS.

2009-11-26T01:09:00.000-08:00

It's been months not hearing from you.

and suddenly, you popped out.

out of thin air.

and again, in my life, ruining it just like you did last time.

I still hate you for what you did.

but i guess there's nothing that can be changed.

nothing could be reversed nor undone.

Sometimes i just wish you were never alive.

never even existed in my life.

how things could've been easier then.

How i wouldn't have had to dealt with the mess you left behind.

i trusted you, i loved you.

and all you did was break it all.

Shredded them all.

how heartless could you be?

and how pathetic was i.

Now, sitting her thinking.

that months has passed by.

new feelings are developing,for a new person.

But you just had to come back.

and shatter it all.

I HATE YOU.

i will forever hate you.

no matter how many apologies you've made.

no matter how sorry you are.

That feeling i have for you is true.

what you did was not erasable .

it was treacherous

still no matter how much i hate you i can still love you.

how is it that i hate you but i love you?

i guess i'm stuck on you.

sheesh.

why wont you just disappear already?

once you do,

maybe,

just maybe,

my life would get a whole lot easier.

COULD IT BE?

2009-11-15T00:06:00.000-08:00

JAEBEOM IS BAAAAAAACK!

i think.

read the news below. (:

i copied it from allkpop.

They say a picture is worth a thousand words. But what kinds of words has this photo of Jaebeom struck up? In the last couple of hours, a certain photograph of 2PM’s~~ex-~~leader Jaebeom has been circulating around on fan sites, stirring chaos amongst 2PM fans. This candid photo shows Jaebeom leaving a Korean airport. Wait! Korean airport?! Yes, you heard me right. Many fans are speculating that this photo is recent because it hasn’t been seen by many people yet. Some fans are even suggesting that he may be returning just in time for this year’s MAMA. Now if this is the case, the question would be whether he’s returning just to attend the awards show or to perform with 2PM, as they are having a special stage with Ivy this year. So what do you think? Could this possibly be Jaebeom’s return to 2PM? Or is it just a rumor? Stay tuned as allkpop keeps following this hot topic, and make sure to check out the2ONEDAY Forums.

oh please let JaeBeom-mi be back.

i missed him.

it just aint 2pm without him.

Much LOVE;

I MISS YOU JAY :D

2009-11-12T04:17:00.000-08:00

JAY!

JAYBEOMMI!

haha. okay, what i really wanted to say is,

2PM'S IS BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!

can you believe it?

here,check this out.

can you believe it? JAY isnt it in.

*inserts sad face*

Anyways, what i wanna say is; O.o

woaaah. is it just me noticing or has 2PM gotten hotter?

and....creepier.

haha.

no offence,i LOVE them ,but whats with the dancing?

but it is kinda cool,and scary at the same time.

anyways,it doesnt matter,

i still LOVE them and they are the best.

and i kinda like their MV its cool. unique.

and and, WOOYOUNGIIE! wow!

he looked different and HOT. haha.

oh and their new hairstyle.

hmm,they look like Dara. haah.

it doesnt suit TaecYeon and and Nickhun.

i mean,its okay on Chansung and Junho,

but those two definitely...*shudders*

its creepy.

oooh. WOOYOUNGIIE.

i love his voice here.

and the ending.

haha(:

Anyways, news about Jay's return?

i got this from allkpop.

Just in time to coincide with 2PM's 6-member release of their Heartbeat music video, JYP (Park Jin Young)mentioned his thoughts and plans on ex-2PM leaderJaebeom's possible return on Golden Fishery last night.

On the show, JYP said:

"When the news about his anti-Korean statements were first released, I believed that the level of criticism against him was too harsh. I mean, people petitioned for his death. But public opinion changed to 'the translation was misleading and he did not do anything wrong' after he left for States, as if he actually did not do any wrong. His thoughts and mine on this matter are the same - it is somewhere in between. He did not do such great wrong but it is a matter serious enough that we cannot just ignore and pretend it didn't happen. It was a great mistake. Especially for a person who sings, dances and performs art. We are the ones who connect two different cultures and he cannot disrespect people of different culture like that. I believe that his expressions were very wrong

Is Jaebeom a bad person? No, he is very nice. But back then, his attitude was quite unpleasant, telling me in my face that he can succeed only if he doesn't get a song written by me. But I liked Jaebeom despite his attitude because he never lied, he was always truthful - and he kept changing. Now, he is a different person from who he was back then. I do agree then Jaebeom of the past has hurt too many Koreans with harsh expressions and he thinks the same. That is why he couldn't get on the stage because of shame. But you see, other members still have to perform, and he did not want to drag 2PM down. That is why he said "Hyung, I want to go back to States." If I was him, I think I would have made the same decision.

If him and I thought that accusations against him were wrong then we would have fought for him until the end. But he himself thinks that he did a great wrong. If the media and the fans feel any love for Jaebeom then the best they could do is let him be. He is taking time to regret and think over his wrongs so letting him do so would be helpful.

What can I do while he does so? Help him continue taking dancing and singing lessons to continue training as an artist. When he says that he wants to be back on stage, then I will help him do so. When he comes back, he will come back as a part of 2PM, the members love others very much. Neither him nor the members want him to return as a solo artist."

There we go folks, JYP hasn't given up on Jaebeom but he wants to respect his decision of seclusion in Seattle until Jaebeom wants to come back. For now, it seems the best course of action is to leave Jaebeom alone. Stay tuned to allkpop as 2PM continues their journey without leader Jaebeom for the time being. Remember to visit the 2ONEDAY Forums.

So yeah, Jay is coming back. hopefully.

Jaybeom, hwaiting!

nanun tangshinul saranghamnida! (:

anyways,i gotta go, bye!

Much LOVE;

RESULTS.

2009-11-12T02:44:00.000-08:00

Results.

*tears*

lol.i mean it.

i think i did far worst than mid-terms.

this sucks -.-

i hate exams,have i ever mentioned that?

i believe i have,cause its not likely that i havent.

btw, bestf, abg F and H didnt come to school.

~~bastards~~.

haha. okay,kidding guys.

but seriously,its not fair you get to skip school.

i asked daddy if i could skip school tomorrow.

guess what he said?

"if you want to do that, then just quit school"

-________-

ughhh.its not as if we're studying.

i'm bored out of my mind.

well, no offence girls XD

hahaa. i love you,but...well,i tend to want to do my thing once in a while(:

btw,i finished reading all of my books!

sheeessh.i have nothing else to do.

and bestf is annoying the F out of me.

[aku btol,satu hari ini,kau tido, kau tk bangun balik ah. ahahah XD]

okay, bestf,i'm kidding. dont take it too hard.

ooh,i did bad for english.i got a B -.-'

seriously, whats with my grades?

oh yeah.i didnt study. haha

well,i'm bored out of my mind.

and blogging aint helping.

Much LOVE;

Faaa.

2PM :D

2009-11-08T20:46:00.001-08:00

2PM~ (:

Yeay! 2PM's comeback will be next week!

cant wait,i do hope those rumors about Jay's return are true..

i miss him..

gosh, 2PM's not really 2PM without him,i mean he is the leader

and the "GREATEST DANCER" amongst all of them.(:

btw, here's a teaser..but Jay isnt in it =(

WooYoung;

Chansung;

TaecYeon;

Nichun;

Junho;

Junsu;

and and, have i mentioned yet that WooYoung is getting cuter?(:

he is, now he's one of my favourites. teehee.

anways, enough of 2PM,

hmmmm. i'm worried. called bestf's hp and he didnt pick up..

and i didnt call just 1 time, i did it alot of times.

i think 6.

haha. but i guess he's sleeping.

or ignoring me-.-'

he chooses to do that most of the time.

mean ,aint he?

haha. okay, if you are reading this bestf, haha . i'm kidding.

lol. anyways. I'M FREAKING BORED.

i guess you could guess that cause..well..i am blogging arent i?

oooh. anyways,i gotta go. for now.

i wanna read, thats more fun.

plus educational than this XD

Much LOVE;

More to life.

2009-11-08T04:35:00.000-08:00

H E L L O P E O P L E :D

i know, its been such a long time since i blogged.

and the reason i'm blogging now is only because Farihin told me to.

lol. she called me a BADOT XD

i'm offended Far ,haha.

anyways, i've actually miss blogging,i've been writing more.

anyways, EXAMS ARE LIKE FINALLY OVER!

okaay, personally,i'm not that excited.

Wanna know why?

I didnt do well,

i know i havent gotten my results, but believe me

i know i didnt well.

i didnt study at all.

[Btw,reading does not count as studying,who knew? XD]

Anyways, things in my life are okay,

not chaotic, not peaceful but okay.

Thats a first.

hmm,i miss bestf.

he's busy and caught up with stuff and he doesnt want me to intervene.

hmph,i personally dont care.i'm your bestf.

*sighs*

i just miss him alot.

okay,i personally dont know what to say anymore.

So here's your post Far (:

HAAHA.

Much LOVE;

P.S: NO SCHOOL TOMORROW AND TUESDAY!

SHINee. Ring ding dong. lol. weird title for a song XD

2009-10-18T07:58:00.000-07:00

Is it just me or has SHINee become kinkier?

i mean really. look at their dressing nowadays.

especially key,oh gosh.

bu atleast he doesnt look like a girl in this video.

okay,truthfully,he does,when he sang 'elastic'

lol. again, they're getting kinky XD

no offence,i love them and their songs,

but wooaah. whats with JongHyun;s hair?

its nice,but doesnt suit him that much.

and Minho's hair..its long.. why is it long?

he doesnt look cute anymore-.-'

then there's onew's hair, its just... weird. lol. idk.

it does look weird,

and then , there's key.

my darling key. lol. in this vid, he looks like a homo -.-'

no offence.

i'm just as crazy over key as some of you are, but..

key.. wth? but i still love him

he has an awesome talent.

They all do.

so i LOVE them for that(:

lol. i'd just wish they'd be themselves again.

and have i mentioned that Taemin is gettonh HOTTER?

wow. he's grown ;D

anyways, it doesnt matter,

key still belongs in my heart. He always will.

Him and G-Dragon of course ;))

alright peeps

i gotta go. need sleep.

P/S; have i ever mention that i hate being sick? -.-'

I Miss you.

2009-10-07T05:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes You think You'll Be Fine by Yourself

Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone

Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help

But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

You'll Change
Inside
When You
Realize
The World Comes To Life
and Everythings Alright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty Of All
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend(x2)

Someone Who knows When Your Lost and Your Scared
There through The Highs and The Lows
Someone You Can Count On, Someone Who Cares
Besides You Where Ever You Go

You'll Change Inside
When You
Realize
Inside
The World Comes To Life
and Everythings Alright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty Of All
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend

And When The Hope Crashes Down
Shattering To The Ground
You'll, You'll Feel All Alone
When You Dont Know Which Way To Go
And There's No Such Leading You On
You're Not Alone

The World Comes To Life
and Everythings Alright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty Of All
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe In
When You Believe In
You Can Believe In
The Gift of A Friend

"A word's just a word

'Til you mean what you say

And love isn't love

'Til you give it away

We've all got to give

Yeah, something to give

To make a change

Send it on

On and on

Just one hand can heal another

Be a part

Reach a heart

Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action

The chain reaction will never stop

Make it strong

Shine a light and send it on

Just smile

And the world

Will smile along with you

That small act of love

That's meant for one

Will become two

If we take the chances

To change circumstances

Imagine all we can do

If we...

Send it on

On and on

Just one hand can heal another

Be a part

Reach a heart

Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action

The chain reaction will never stop

Make it strong

Shine a light and send it on

Send it on

Oh, send it on

There's power in all of the choices we make

So I'm starting now, there's not a moment to wait

A word's just a word

Until you mean what you say

And love isn't love

'Til you give it away

Send it on

On and on

Just one hand can heal another

Be a part

Reach a heart

Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action

The chain reaction will never stop

Make it strong

Shine a light and send it on

Send it on

On and on

Just one hand can heal another

Be a part

Reach a heart

Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action

The chain reaction will help things start

Make it strong

Shine a light and send it on

Shine a light and send it on"

Listen to it and tell me that you are still you.

The promises you made.

The smiles and little secrets we shared.

Was it nothing to you?

I miss you, dont you miss me?

You used to lend me your shoulder to cry on.

Now, you couldnt careless about me.

Why? did i do something wrong?

I HATE YOU FOR DOING THIS TO ME.

Of all the people.

Especially you. You should know better.

i cant believe i was stupid enough to believe that you'd stay.

That you wont leave me,

You're just like all of them.

Those betrayers.

Though , eventhough you did all of that to me

i still care,

i still miss you.

I still want you to stay .

and...i cant believe you blocked me!

Iftar.

2009-09-16T20:19:00.000-07:00

Time; 11.24am

Mood; =.='

i hate being sick.

i hate it.

But i dont mind not going to school today(:

hahhaaa.

okay, my sickness?

Not going to tell you XDD

haaahaa. ade lah reason aku asl aku tk nk blg krg2 ah eh.

*sigh*

haaah. you people might think i'm bored.

But i'm not..

I'm just tired.

hah.

Penat tau nk buat kuih!

Dah lah sakit =.='

But the sickness is not the kind that cannot let me have hand movements.

i can sit down.

just not stand up XD

you understand that dont you girls?

haaaha. Anyways, Iftar.

Yesterday was fun(:

not like the usual iftar we have, cause this time there was less food, more people and faster, XD

But you wanna know why its fun for me?

i got to spend my time with my girls(:

We were together the whole time. it was awesome(:

i like Iftars we get to meet our friends.

old friends.

long lost friends.

i.e.; farihin and nazeeha XDD

haha. jk girls(:

Anyways, i gotta go for now,

need to help mummy and sis bake(:

Psssst. my sister didnt go to school either XD

and her school isnt the same as mine .

haha.

Bye,

Much LOVE;

P/S: just got to know from Adam that nyari half day =.='

haha. nvm,that meant i didnt miss out much

Annoying the F out of me.

2009-09-02T06:31:00.000-07:00

Blogging.
Huh.whats the use for blogging?
right,letting go of your feelings.
if you dont like what i'm saying here,you're problem ah!
haha. kayy. main2,eh,H kalau kau majok kan,aku tembak kau ah XD

lol. okayy, anyways.
school was, ughhh,again,tiring!
i'll never get used to it.
Btw,i was late to school today.
gahhh. sisters fault!
=.='
ouhs, i had a reason,only to the T's it wasnt VALID =.='
mepeeeeeek sgt2.
anyways, besty is soo dead!
you are going to die a gruesome death!
i hate you =.='

haah. there. i said it.
and i mean it too XD
well not really,but you are dead when i see you.

Anyways,not really feeling well.
stupid headache =.='
and besty isnt helping,he's annoying the f out of me.

ouhs. and did i mention thanks to my retest for my retest i got 10/30.
nice number aint it? =.='
sheeesh. nvm,i failed that subject only.
so not really important.
just have to put more effort for end year exams.

*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*

hah. okaay. basically,that me telling all of you ppl i'm tired,i have a headache and besty is annoying me =.='
but nevertheless,i guess i'm okay,
msged with M just now.
he was....suprisingly helpful....hah.
now so was my nut,but, i dont know who's right.
i meant who's advice i should follow =.='

ouh ouh.
change of topic,i dont want to be moody.
hmmm. found out Far is in Singapore!
OMG! Farihin!
you didnt tell me!
how could you?!
haha. kayy. nvm.

ouhs.And Nazeeha is coming soon too(:
how i miss those two.

hmmm. igtg.
need to do my chores.
And yeay! Grandad amd Grandma coming to my house tomorrow.(:
but that means i have to take either the MRT or the bus.
heh. if i take the bus....(:
but if i take the MRT i can talk to my friends about something too.
hmm. *contemplating*

ahhh. i'll decide tomorrow.
i gotta go.

Much LOVE;
Fatin

P/S:i got a choc from a certain someone(:

I have everything. or atleast i used to...

2009-08-31T22:48:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLES!(:

gahh. i'm bored.

i edited a pic,but it cannot be uploaded. stupid =.='

stupid blog.

Nvm,i'll just put it up later.i mean try later.

Anyways,gosh,from morning till now its still pretty damn cold.

and a certain someone isnt quite making me happy.

well 2 ppl actually.

Besty and then there's HIM.

Besty,i'm sorry i said. i didnt mean to.

besides you started it,soo, truce?

as for him,thats a long story,oh no wait,its not.

i dont get it at all.

oh well.

he's not only confusing me,but he's well hurting me too.

by saying what he said,

i'm bummed.

I'm already having a bad day as it is,and he worsening it.

besty is sorta helping. sorta. not really. okay,idk. atleast i'm laughing now.

I'm sorry if you feel that way,but what am i to do?

and you keep talking to me then not talking to me much.

when i asked questions you say nvm.

How do you expect me to understand.

and about what you said earlier,thats not true.

not at all,if i didnt want a guy like you,then why am i with you now?

does that answer your question.?

and one more thing,you have to stop asking me those kind of questions okay?

and be confident about the fact that i love you and no one else okay?

Hmmm. besty you are soo dead! OMG,i cant believe you said that to her!

you soo are going to die XD

and I WILL NOT HELP YOU IN THIS.

you were the one who wanted to do it,face your own consequences XDD

and dont you dare call me evil,you know its true.

oh.gosh.

time flies

i gotta go,help mummy sow my baju raya(:

First day if raya colour, PINK!(:

Much LOVE;

Fatin

Misses,Frustration.

2009-08-31T05:39:00.000-07:00

School was.......interesting.
well not really.
nothing much today.
ughh. except we had to take retest for our retest =.='
Hadith and Tauhid i mean.
i was like what the??
but given,wasnt Ustazah's fault.
haissh.
something tells me i'm going to fail my Tauhid =.='

aaaaggggh.
and have i ever mentioned i hate mondays?
well,i do.
really.
its soo tiring.
Not to mention boring.
ouhs and he didnt come to school today =(
tkpe.atleast he's okay now(:

hmm.
chatting with Farihin and Nazeeha currently.
Miss them!
haha. I didnt know that me and Farihin were ever in the same class XD
haha. i roughly remember what she looks like when she was still in Irsyad.
but now? i havent met her.
actually she says i have,only i dont remember anything XDD
haha. and Nazeeha!
we were good friends in p4.
those secrets XD
those funny times.
gaaah. i miss both of them.
atleast InsyaALLAH,i will be able to meet with Nazeeha this sept.
Far? when am i going to meet you? XDD

haaha. and i want to go shopping with you and buy books with you when you come to Singapore again! i didnt get to do that remember?
ohs. and who knew that me and Far were in the same class in P2?
i DIDNT. haha, XD
and neither did Far.
i wonder why ii dont remember you.

hmm.
well.i'm tired of blogging XD

Much LOVE;
Fatin

P/S: maybe ine of these days i'll post all those names of the people who are supposed to be in my batch. i miss most of them. how i remembered most of them is beyond me XD

He's baaaaaaaaaaaack!

2009-08-29T03:09:00.000-07:00

i gotta admit.i love TEDDY(:
haha. and the song GD copied SNSD?
lol .lame seyh! XD
anyways, nevertheless,GD's still got his orginality in the lyrics.
hahs. and i guess he's okay.
i still love him though(:
and i love GD'S and Taeyang's song! it soo nice!
they rock together,though,he did swear =.='
that was suprising honestly.
to me the song Gossip man was funny XD
haha. i know he was pissed cause of the rumors ppl made about him..

GD(:

2009-08-29T02:53:00.001-07:00

What happened to my GD?
really?
Okaaay. heard that this song was like plagarized? i dont think so.
it did sound like Right round.
but he has his originality there.
his clothes.
but then again not,
he's like the guy version of Lady Gaga =.='

Nvm,he still will be my fav singer.
always had always will be.
and i simply LOVE THIS SONG(:
its really is a good song,but his MV is sorta lame =.='
haha.
and love his hair.
it may be dyed blonde but he still looks the same.
meaning atleast his hair isnt ugly XD
i love his hairstyle and the colour,it suits him. he looks HOT like that XD

haha. tgh puasa sey,
haisssh. i'm bored =.=
he isnt online.
and another person is annoying the heck out of me .
Stupid person. =.=''

Wtv.

2009-08-27T02:30:00.000-07:00

Screw you.
how could you even say that?
pffft, some friend.
i cant believe i ever admitted that you were my bestfriend.

Now,even if you were the last person on earth,i would never ever befriend you.
screw you for all of this.
i did nothing wrong and now you say i do?

you said that this is why we were friend anymore?
well let me tell you loser,who was the one who was always there for you when you needed to let out everything?
your anger,
your fears,
your tears.

ME.
Me,not them.
and you chose them.
i dont give a damn if you want to say that i'm being a total ***** for writing this here.
In fact, i dont give a damn if the whole world knew what type of person you are.

And you can ever forget what i said to you before this.
Maybe i was wrong about you.
you're the same as all of them.

yeah you are right.
forget that we were ever friends.
that will be soo easy.
cause honestly , a friend like you is not hard at all to REPLACE.

TIRED. =.='

2009-08-26T05:21:00.000-07:00

Wednesdays.

oh how i love wednesdays.
NOT=.='

gahhh. i'm tired.
haha. then again i'm always tired XD

no difference today.
even if we go back at 3.25,i am still very tired.
i wonder why.
i go and return from school by car =.='

haha. yes i'm pampered.
i love being pampered by my parents,
besides,they're the ones who offered to sent me and take me from school.
i agreed to.
but then again,you really cant blame me,i live at Bukit Batok,
thats far from my school.

anyways,today brother wasnt her with us for buke.
he went to his gf's house as she'll be leaving S'pore soon.
so then there was 5 XD

Okay, so we were talking then my sister said something bout 'Buds before Studs' and daddy said 'Studies before Boyfies'
ahaha. i laughed at that XD

it was fanny, speaking of thaat.
gosh,he sure made my day today.
he's being really sweet to me nowadays(:

oh speaking of today, i passed my FIQH PAPER!
I GOT 32.5/40!
haha. i'm so freaking happy.

oh RaeAe is annoying me =.='
haha. soooo evil person.
nevertheless i trust him alot,especially with the things i tell him.
and his friend(:
hehh.. he's not so useless after all.
haha, kidding.
RA if you read this,i'm kidding,and NO! i will never give you MY MUFFINS.

hah. gi tgk kau nye singapore idol ah.
puase pon sempat tgk XD

haha.
kayy i gtg now,
need to solat terawih

Much LOVE;
Fatin

P/S: Just now i cooked for buke(:
and daddy said it was delicious.
hehh(:

It's not fair you know

2009-08-25T02:23:00.000-07:00

What did i do?
Nothing.
and yet,she still wont talk to me.

The rest of the girls were normal.
they talked,laughed and still shared secrets with me.

i dont get her,i honestly dont.
i didnt do anything wrong.
even if i did,why doesnt she just tell me?
i mean,she is the straightforward kind.
huh.

Annoyed and frustrated.
whatever,i'm tired of this.
And RA told me to forget about.

well atleast i still have RA.
ouh and JH too.

Speaking of ppl,
he sorta made my day today.
i got a choc from him(:
well his cousin called me but nevertheless he gave it to me(:

okaaaaay.
something also made my day today.
i dont need to take a re-test for science!
woooohhhho!(:

haha. i know thats ridiculous.
but come on, who am i kidding?
ever since sec one,my grades have been slipping.
BADLY i might add.

And i'm improving bit by bit.
atleast i think so XD
haha.

ehhhh,boring lah.
tkde pape nk buat.
tapi then again i dont really feel like talking to anyone.

Other than Ahjee(:
gaaaaahhh.i miss my crazed bestfriend XD
hmmmm. BORED!

haha. k ahh.
nk main game ahs.

Much LOVE;
Fatin

P.S: awwwww. can he be any sweeter?
i know he cant really cheer me up now.
cause honestly,i dont think anyone can.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY(:

2009-08-24T05:47:00.000-07:00

So school is a drag today =.='
oh soo boring.
wanna know why?
we have 3 science periods today.
haha XD
okay that was mean.

No offence but honestly,i get sleepy during his lesson.
but nevertheless he's a great person.
Lame,but great(:

hahs. anyways, i have to have a retest for malay.
stupid 2 marks.
i was only two marks away from getting a 65%!
grrrrr! this is why i hate malay =.='

ooh. and practically didnt se JH at school T.T
haha. i'm soo terrible.
Puase sey fatin XD
tkpe, bsk ade Qiraa.
all the more reasons why i like tuesdays(:

hehh. and dpt bbual nan Sarah psl something!
woohoo(:
haha.
i love tuesdays.
gahhh. sister is bugging me =.='

have to go.
i'll update soon.
when i have time,i guess.

and Far, i have a poem i want you to read.
its at my p.blog(:
and and,you can just comment on my tagboard AT my private blog.
no need to say it here(:

ouh and one last thing, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOTHER!(:
Hahs. kayy. done.

Much LOVE;
Fatin.

P/S: QUID PRO QUO?
huh. i dont think friendships about that Fefe =.='

P.S.S: 08,i'm sorry. i feel like its my fault somehow.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADK SYIQA(:

2009-08-22T23:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR ADK SYIQAAA(:
I AM SO SORRY I DIDNT WISH YOU, SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH MY HP =.='
I LOST ALL OF MY CONTACTS!
AND I ONLY HAVE THE NUMBERS OF THE ONE I RECENTLY CONTACTED WITH.

i know.
meepeeeeeek kaaaaan?
haha. anwyays.
as i was saying.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY ADK! :D
MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS AND WISHES WILL COME TRUE.
AND MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU ALWAYS.
I HAVENT BOUGHT YOU A PRESENT YET FOR YOU.
BUT I'LL BUY IT SOON.
YOURS AND FATEN'S .
I STILL HAVENT GIVEN HER ANYTHING XD
haha.

Aand i am really sorry for the late wish =(

FASTING :D

2009-08-22T03:55:00.000-07:00

it's 6.55pm.
only a few minutes till buke.
alhamdulillah, XD

anyways, i'm bored.
helped my mom cooked,
cut the tahu,
made tea,
fried popiahs,
and set the table.

haha. am i a good daughter or am i a good daughter?
haha. kayy just kidding.
hmmm. JiHwa is kind of not inthe mood to talk to me ,so whatever.
Just now SangKyung,called me,.

haha. what a shock XD
i soo did not expect that.
haha. we talked abt like 10 mins?
cause i had to help my mum and he wanted to sleep =.='
hahs. btw,SangJyung is JiHwa's friend,the one who told him i like him =.='
yeahh, but we're okay now(:
heh. we're sort of helping each other out.

haha. kayy,i gtg.
dad is annoyed with my typing sound XD
i meant the sound of me typing.
haha.

Much LOVE;
Fatin

endless.

2009-08-04T15:25:00.000-07:00

Okayyy.
how long have it been since i've update this thing?
let me tell you,nearly a month.
heh.

i've lately been....caught up with stuff yeah.
its been a rough 3 weeks.
but i'll survive i guess.
i have Amir right?
my never ending problems are just a test from God i guess.

and who can be better to be there for me if not Amir?
oh and 3? XD
haha. thnks guys,

oh yeah,and not to forget 6j.
kayy,whatever i dont want to talk about that.

Shheeesh. our CA2's are soo near.
and i'm only half prepared for maths,english and quran. the rest? either not at all or a quarter.
heh,
3 is stressing,cause he has his MAJOR exam.
good luck on that.
i'm sure you'll pass with flying colours(:

okayy,i'm just going to say one thing before i have to get ready for school.
what does the word BETRAYED means,you have any clue tell me.
and give me a sentence.
cause it looks like a certain friend of mine doesnt understand that word.
kalau either of krg terasa,hah,perasan ah tu.

sheesh,and sabrina dont you dare answer that question,
or so help me you will look like a plump once i'm done with you XD
you too 3,i'll most likely wont hit you but i'll throw a book at you.

now,dont you both just love me when i'm mean?(:
anyways,that not really the reason i'm writing.

i was kinda wanting to apologise,
for what you may ask.

firstly i want to apologise to sabrina,
i'm sorry. that issue was just too sensitive to touch on. lets not go there again okay?
and then Amir, sorry i was being a total bitch bout that,but you cant expect me to understand that do you?
and then 3,sorry if i made you worried,but i dont get it,why did you act as if you didnt know? atleast you could've told me what you heard,right?
then my classmates; if i flipped out on you then i'm sorry,i just alot on my plate right now. though i dont think i need to apologise to one of you.
then 6J; almost the same as the above, though i know all of you are just trying to be there,but like i said, we're all too different,and i have my own way of thinking and so do all of you. though i'd respect it if whatever i share with you girls,you dont go running around telling bestfriends,no matter how worried you were.
if you can respect me that way,the surely i can have respect for you.
but right now.i dont. so lets just leave it there.
and laslty i'll apologise to Fefe; you are right,i've changed, for the better or worst? who knows, but so have you. i'm sorry you dont want that anymore,but then again,maybe this is just a blessing in disguise right?

hmmmm. yeah. so that sums it up.
i'm done here,oh and Fefe,look at our first conversation,i know you have still have it with you,and if you still dont understand, then you should be sorry. not me. but surely you know how much i miss you. takecare of yourself okay? dont do anything stupid. and yeah i quoted you.

so thats all.
and ughhh, school.
i gtg.

Bye

13July(:

2009-07-13T02:35:00.001-07:00

MONDAY; 13 JULY;

YEAY!
No school todayy.
gahhh. but i'm tired.
lol. i didnt even do any work.
well accept for making icing.
but that barely counts.
but i guess its because of all the walking..

Anyways,yesterday was fun fun fun!
really. but it was very very crowded.
i think it's because our school isnt that BIG.

oh well,i should probably start from the beginning.
i went to school boarding the MRT !(:
woooh. first time XD
gahhaa.

Okay,i got sidetracked.
i'll start from the beginning.
when we arrived school at 7.25.
with 5 mins to spare.

apparently that was what i thought.
we had to rehearse for the big event,
by big event,i dont mean the carnival.
The big even was when our guest of honour,Mufti Syed Isa has to cut the ribbon.
the one which officially says that our school is officially open.

i was happy at first when we came,but but,i got tired of waiting by 8.45.
but soon the Mufti came and the evnt started it.
it was hella cool!(:

seriously! it was soo beautiful and fun and exciting.(:
i was glad i came.

so when the even ended and the guest were off to the auditorium, the rest of us,the secondary students had our own jobs.
My duty was not until 12pm.
and guess what my duty was from 12-7pm .
its cool though,the fact that we get to stay at school that day(:

so me,01 and 04 walked around a bit.
well that was until some of my other friends came.
so i went with them.
but before they came i really wanted to do my work =(
but there was too many people taking care of that small booth.

so i walked around with Yasmin and Eemah to kill them.
they were a truck load of laughs XD
i cant stop smiling or laughing.
and i guess i lost track of time. so that explains why i didnt do my work.
i think my friends were pissed at me.

i'm sorry guys,but when you guys told me that there were no more cookies i took it lightheartedly cause all of you didnt seem mad.
but i was wrong i guess.
i'm sorry to all of you.

so the carnival was amazing.
it was pretty damn crowded actually.
but it was a big turn out.
i saw some old friends.
but i didnt particularly see my bestfriend.

oh well,then suddenlyy from being with with Yasmin and Eemah for a short while,i was with them the whole time.
i felt bad at a certain time,
well time to time actually.

whats even worst was that my bestfriend went home alone.
i'm sorry Aji =(
i couldnt go home with you i had to pick up my dad at the aiport.
oh yeah,my dad.
god i cant believe i was wearing my school uniform when i picked up my dad at the airport.
and god,she was being a total bitch to me.
i hate it.
what did i do to her?
i know for sure i never did anything to provoke her.
and as for her brother,he was nice to me.
good,atleast some one is okay with me.
well that all.
i dont have much to say
here are some pictures of that day.

computer class(:

2009-07-02T18:25:00.000-07:00

HELLO people of the world(:
gahhaa.
my school just gave us permission to use the computer lab(:

yeaaaaaaaaay!
heheh.me and some of the few girls wanted to blog and so we did(:
you wont believe what ustaz is teaching us.

well,i'm going to tell you.
he's teaching us how to make a script.
this really cool thing!
and we're doing it in ARABIC! :D

Gahhaa. i dont know what to write on the scripts. =.='
as my arabic is very very bad.
haha.
i'm doing it on english.
maybe i'll show it sometime. heh.
ouhs btw,i love this class(:

hmm,6j arent sitting very near.
me and 01 & 02 are sitting at the same table.
while 06 & 05 and the other end of this room =(
and nis at the other table beside me(:

its nice to have the four of us near,but 06 and 05 are far away.
ouhs.guess what?
our P just came in,
that means i gotta go,
bye!

i'll post soon.
ouhs and for the past two days yasmin and eemah came to muhajirin,that means i saw them.
heh.
i took some pictures.
insyallah i'll post them later on.
at home.

heh(:

Much LOVE;
Fatin

ouhs. here's my comic strip. mepek oi XD

and here's another one in english XD
i know,i'm soo lame.

28 june and 29 june. gahh. school! XD HAPPY SCHOOLING!

2009-06-29T02:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday 28 June;
Watched Transformers with sibs,Izi,Sarah,Thariq,Novo and Haziq.
well the Rosli's and haziq that is XD

haha.well i have only one thing about the movie;
IT WAS AWESOME!(:
INCREDIBLY AWESOME!
gahh. the fights were cool!
i dont understand people who said the movies was boring.

especially when they said there was 'too many fight scenes'.
i was like wth?
its and ACTION movie.
hello? what part of action you dont understand??
anyways, we were sitting on the same row.
i sat beside Izi. on my other side was my sis.
and beside her was, my other sis,Kak Sarah,Thariq,My bro.
Beside Izi was Novo then Haziq.
so basically we sat in the age group.

it was awesome. and Shia Labeouf was soo cute!(:
and i almost died of a heart attack when Optimist prime died.
but he came to life again,with that matrix thing.
thank god.(:

so after the movie we talked and i had to go cause we wanted watch Harpers Island.
uggghhh!
i hated it.
how could Jimmy be the apprentice of Wakefield?!
even if he was,why did Abby's dad told Wakefield not to kill Jimmy as he wants Abby to live a happy life with Jimmy?!
And dont even think about saying maybe he dad DIDNT no.
her dad did.
he kept files of Jimmy,
i hate watching series =.='

oh and when izi called me to complain i complained with her too.
then i heard some guy in the background(which i am pretty sure is Novo); saying: oh for crying out loud! go to sleep already!

me and izi laughed but izi ignored him. and we kept talking till 12.30am.
then after that i prayed and read my book(:

29 june;
GOSH.
SCHOOL!(:
haha. it was soo great to see my friends again!
i missed them oh so much!
and my teachers too(:
surprise surprise .i know.

well i heard the worst news today,i'm not telling you what though XD
ouhs and Arabiah students are in our premises .
i meant Braddell(:
their school is near us((:
GEE.
i wanted to meet Yasmin and Eemah soo much!.
gahhha.

ouhs and YEAY!
FARIHIN IS IN SINGAPORE!
FARIHIN,YOU HAVE TO GO SHOPPING WITH ME WHILE YOU'RE HERE(:
hehh,

oh and talked to MNH for from after school,when i reached home at 4.45 or so till just now(:
gee,he asked how was school and all.
he even asked about my ex best friend.
he sympathized me .
now,boyfy didnt call nor msg.
where has he gone?

oh well,oh and talked to Yasmin the whole day XD
right yasmin? XD
haha. alruight,i gotta go,.

Much LOVE;
Fatin

TRANSFORMERS 2 ...revenge of the something. i dont remember.

2009-06-28T03:21:00.000-07:00

Gosh,my family was supposed to go watch it today.
but daddy just had to go to work.
pffft, and we already bought a ticket of 6.

how can my dad do this to me?
i'm extremely sad and suprisingly i am furious too.
so since daddy and mummy will be going to that dinner party.
its left with us kids.

dont get me wrong,i love spending time with my sibs,but its not much fun.
cause daddy bailed =(

So,we had to extra tickets,
i asked daddy if i could bring Izi.
he said as long as Izi's dad allows it.
and i called her she said YES!

Haha. gosh she was enthusiastic.
and she brought Sarah with her.
now,i originally would have called boyfy, but screw him.

oh well,its almost maghrib and i need to break my fast!(:
tootles everybody,
oh and maybe i'll write my view of that movie here(:

THE KOREAN WORLD.

2009-06-27T02:25:00.001-07:00

Thanks(:

2009-06-27T02:06:00.000-07:00

Gosh,today was tiring.
hahs. woke up early to go to tahfiz!(:
i didnt know why,but i was excited to go there.
suprisingly i missed MKS(:

gahhh,anyways, for today,i had to go back by myself.
mum didnt pick me up =(
but i'm not complaining,i had fun with the girls(:
We had a truck full of laughs for that day.
i dont think i've laughed that hard for a very long time.

I guess that explains why i called boyfy today.
while i was taking to 04 about a certain ex-friend.
boyfy wasnt much help,he didnt want to talk about him.
he says he feels better if i just forgot that friend of mine,
he says told me already not to be friends with the guy,but i didnt hear.

GOD,i was freaking mad i just told boyf to shove off.
just as i was mad at him,Novo was online. he noticed my PM.

said if i was okay,if there was anything he could do to help.
i said nothing could fix that problem.
he says atleast tell him why.
and so i did.
but he had to go.

he was going to play soccer,so he said goodbye.
but as i thought our conversation was over,he called me.(:
when i picked up he said : didnt think that i was really saying goodbye did you? so continue.

and so i did.
and after around half an hour i hanged up.
he did make me feel better,
so thanks Novo(:
and tell Haziq i said sorry XD

But then i was upset again,
haiish. now thats another personal reason i'd rather not tell.

6J?
please dont ever break our friendship ...

BIG BANG PREVIEW OF 'MY HEAVEN'!(:

2009-06-26T07:19:00.000-07:00

BIG BANG PREVIEW!

The making of video for Big Bang's latest MV "My Heaven" is not what you expect, with 80% of the video focused on G-Dragon while the others are left fighting over the other 20%.

I must say with all the couple shots, G-Dragon and his lover would make a perfect couple for Mnet Scandal. Daesung in the short amount of time we see him has regained his cute guy image back, not the tough guy image he had for the single's photoshoot.

Also Included in this video is a extremely short section on the phootshoot around the 4:14 mark if you are interested.

TAGGED :D

2009-06-24T02:51:00.001-07:00

1. What is your current ringtone?
- Bitter heart by Zee Avi

2. What is your current wallpaper?
- a picture of me smiling at the camera ?

3. Do you own a picture phone?
- Yeah.

4. If so, what was the last picture you took?
- A picture of a sunset at Malacca. Heh.

5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th text message says?
- "You suck at the game.So quit while you can loser XD" , by Novo =.='

6. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
- About 100? i dont keep some of my friends numbers. heh.

(Where's number 7 by the way?)

8. Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone?
- My 1st sister.

9. What service do you have?
- M1.

10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service?
- Seriously? 1 Bar. Hahaha xD

11. Who's on your speed dial numbers?
- Hmm. Home, Daddy, Mummy, brother,1st sister, 2nd sister, Harith, and Izi :D

12. Do you have voicemail?
- Yes.and it is very annoying =.='

13. How many contacts that start with the letter N?
- what kind of question is that? haha. about 10 :D

14. How many contacts that start with the letter A do you have and who are they?
- 12(: , they are; AmirCUZ,AniqCUZ,AfiqCUZ,Adeelah,Agia,Aji,Aslina,A'anCUZ,AshrafCUZ,Adli,AdilCUZ and AliffCUZ.

15. Go to your missed calls and who is 4th&5th?
- 4th is home.
5th is Iziyanah(:

16. Go to your inbox and list all the peoples who have sent you message.
- 05,04,06,01,Fadhil,Muaz,YasminCUZ,Harithbby,SarahCUZ,Iziyanah,Novo,Haziq,AmirCUZ and Lyna.

17. Who sent you the most msgs?
- Novo XD

18. Whats your screen saver?
- i dont have a screen saver :D

19. Do you have any crush in your contacts?
- :D

20. What does your very last message in your inbox says and who sent you that msg?
(not last msg sent, but the last msg in your inbox)
- "What book are you reading on now?" by Iziyanah(:

21. What keychain do you put on your handphone?
- No keychains.

22. Are you SMSing someone now?
- Yes :D

23. What's your hp brand?
- LG ice cream KF350 (pink)

*Tag 5 Simply Random to This Survey:
- Kak Fifi
- Kak Farah
- Kak Meera
- kak Aina
- Kak Rusda

*I wanna tag another 10! Heheh.
- Shur
- Syiqaa
- Faten
- Fituwiie
- Zee
- Nadiah
- Eemah
- Yasmin
- Kak Syazreema
- Harith

Big Bang is baaaaaaaaaack!(:

2009-06-23T23:08:00.000-07:00

OMG! BIG BANG IS BACK(:
HEHHH.
yeay! finally!
but gosh,what happened to GD's hair? O.o
doesnt matter.
they are still very cute(:
and i bet their music rocks peoples worlds(:

Here's what alkpop thinks;

"The release of Big Bang’s latest single “My Heaven” also meant the release of another Big Bang photoshoot.

For once my eye isn’t directly drawn to G-Dragon but rather it is drawn to Daesung who hasn’t taken his normal cute guy image. Instead Daeung is looking mean and tough and in one of the group pictures is almost death staring the camera, a big change from the “Shouting” photoshoot. On another note, oh G-Dragon when will you learn, I know you love to mix it up for every new occasion but fans want some consistency and don’t need to see a new style every time you step in front of a camera, however, on a positive note at least you’ve gotten out of CL’s wardrobe and are back in your own.

T.O.P has replaced his science goggles and is back to his stylish self although the shades he picked wouldn’t have been my first choice they are a step in the right direction. I admire both Seungri and Taeyang because for most photoshoots they don’t get into the whole lets dress up game that other members get dragged into as is the case with this photoshoot."

Credit: 탐스런탑@bbvipz

Looks like our Maknae Seungri has grown up.
As well as Daesung(:
gahh.cant wait for their album release(:

P/S: i found this cute video! you gotta watch it!(:

MALACCA[21 june]

2009-06-23T08:42:00.000-07:00

As i recalled,i stopped when i told Izi about the going back home.
Gahh,i was suprised to know that she was happy.
But i liked the fact that we were able to shop again the next day.

So when the boys left the room to go and play their PSP or do guy stuff, Iziand Sarah told me and my sisters to bring our clothes to their room as they all wanted to check each others clothes out.

All of them except me of course. i wasnt the bit interested, i wanted to read a book.
and in my defence Farihin said the book was good(:
and i took her word for it,and boy,was she right.
thanks Far(:

Anyways,as the girls were trying on clothes i decided to go the porch- yes they had a sort of porch outside the hotel,you know the receptionist area i was talking about,yeah it was there- but then i found out that someone was there too.
And i'd only realised that when the doorman opened the door for me.

I was shocked to see Novo outside,with his laptop on his lap.
Novo i was certain noticed my presence.
"What are you doing out here?",he asks me.
without looking up from whatever he was doing on the laptop.

Funny,i thought to myself,i was about to ask him the same question.
But when i didnt answer him,he sighed in frustration closed his laptop with a thump and looked at me expectantly,as if waiting for my answer.

"Well?",he asks coldly.
"what? this isnt your porch,its a free country.",i retorted.

At that he laughed,but in amusement.
Then he took his Chinese tea and drank it.
I stared at him in disbelief,what the hell is a 16 year old doing with that?

Then i decided to ignore him as i took the chair that was infront of him.
i sat cross legged on the chair and read my book.
he cleared his throat as to say this is his territory.
And i flipped the pages as though he were nothing.
I am not getting up just because a rude guy wants me to.

Then he sighed and went back to his work.
After a while,which was nearly midnight,i decided to head back to my room.
but before i went, Novo called my name.
I turned around and he said:"Sorry i was being a jerk just now,i didnt mean to."

i accepted his apology and said mine.
Then i went inside leaving him in the hot air outside.

21st JUNE:

I woke up late,it was nearly syuruk,
my sister was stupid enough to go back to sleep when my mum called and told her to pray =.='
So after we prayed daddy called again saying that were leaving for breakfast at 7.30. i was like 7.30?! he was kidding right?
i for one was sure i could be ready by then i have bathed,prayed and cleaned up some of my stuff.
All i was left to do was iron my clothes.
But my sisters?
Gosh,it took then forever to get dressed.
Finally we left at 8.10 am.
Hahah. daddy was not suprised.
He actually wanted to get out at 8 am.
knowing us girls,he set the time to 7.30am.
Smart aint he? XD

Anyways,i was surprised to find out that the restaurant was deserted at that time.
As i recalled my past presence in hotels,i remembered that when we are going to eat breakfast,the place was usually crowded. Wherelse that morning,it wasnt.

When we arrived there the Roslis were already there.
The adults were gonna eat together,wherelse we the children are going to sit together.
As routine, i was sitting with Izi,Novo and Haziq, while my sisters and borther sat with Sara.

As we sat,i cant help but noticed Novo shooting death glares at the parents tables.
And Izi saw that i saw what Novo was doing.

"Stop it!",she hissed at him.
"What? Dont tell me you arent thinking it too!",he hissed back.

I was clueless.
I looked at Haziq,he shrugged.
Then Izi,as a loyal friend she was, was about to explain it to me just before Novo said : "Its always like this,hell,i wish he'd stopped talking about business already.and just have a holiday. with us. and concentrate on us."

and he said it very sadly.
then he pushed his plate away as if to say he lost his appetite.
Wow,i was thinking.
WELCOME TO MY WORLD NOVO. WELCOME TO MY WORLD.

He looked up and muttered and excuse me-i wasnt suprised to know he has table manners as seeing what he was wearing- to us and got up quickly. Izi looked liked she might cry. Haziq stood up too,i was assuming he was going after Novo.

So i tried to sooth Izi and let me tell you it wasnt easy.
i told her i know how she felt.
i faced through it alot of times.
Just as i was finished persuading her,Novo and Haziq came back.

"Sorry for my lack of manners just now ladies",he said,as he sat down.
I told him it didnt mattered.
Then we started digging in,right after reciting the doa.

At one point,i think Haziq was trying to lighten up the mood, so he said: "Man,Novo,dude,look at my salad. The hazelnuts are different shades."
the hazelnuts that were in his salad bowl.

We all inspected our own hazelnuts. it was true,some of them looked darker and some didnt.

"Haziq,i think some of them are naked",retorts Novo,as he snickers.

And with that, all of us laughed.
and it seemed to have lighten up the place.
okay,i gotta say something,the food wasnt that good.
i only liked the salads in particular.
nothing else looked appetizing enough.

Okay sidetracked there for a while. sorry.
anyways as i was saying we were having breakfast.
Then there was this really over helpful waitress.

And well she kept standing beside me, even when there was still alot of food on mmy plate she asked if i was finished.
at one point i was like WTH?
i only stopped eating for less than 2 mins to reach for Novo's hp,
and she thought i didnt want it anymore.

at one point i was soo fed up at her asking me,i said i was done.
but hastily.
Novo turned to me then said: "You know she's just doing her job."
i replied back hastily: "Oh yeah? then why is she doing it to me only?"
Novo thought about it and decided he couldnt argue with me.

So after breakfast was finised-oh i forgot,Novo took a yoghurt so he could eat it in his hotel room,haha-we went back to our rooms to slack off till check out time. which was at 12pm.

So when i was in my room,Novo called.
He asked me whether i wanted to go to the Gym.
actually i did wanna go,but not with him.
i asked if Izi was going to be there.
And he said of course,thats the only reason he called.
Cause Izi was getting ready.
I said sure then hang up quickly and changed.
once i was done i wasnt at all suprised to see the four of them at my door.

Novo always being a smart arse said: "Done,princess?"
i grimaced at him and he smiles.

Alright all of you must have thought we were nuts cause we ate only half an hour ago,but i was used to doing this.
and so were they.

when we reached there the boys went to another part of the gym abd we girls went to the other side.
so we were end-to-end.

i liked that.and they were far from seeing or hearing what we were doing.
Me and Izi talked clothes,boy bands,korean boy bands,korean drama,books and websites.
we had alot in common (:

Anyways,after a whole hour of working out,we were beat.
so we decided to head back to our rooms and bathe .
i forgot to mention earlier,at the hotel,you have to climb a staircase,only a short staircase,but there's also a lift for the handicapped.
you know for the people who arent able to climb the stairs.

The boys decided to have fun while that day was our last day there.
The boys could only go up the lift if we girls pressed the button.
and we girls had to press the button the whole way through for them to go up.
we could not let go of the button,cause if we did the boys would be stuck.
though at a certain point Haziq said the lift was damn slow.
and we girls could walk up and down the staircase 4 times.
we all laughed.
as Izi was busy laughing,she let go of the button.
it jerked to a stop.
the boys laughed then said: "Look at us,we are on top pf the world."

which was not true.
as i could easily climb up 3 stairs and reach where they are.
and which i did so.
then the four of us burst out laughing.

"What do you think you are doing?",says a man.
We all turned to where the voice had come from.
at first we thought it was one of the hotel staff.
but it was a chinese guy with his family.

"you can actually use that?",he asks us.just as the boys reached the tp and got off.
and Izi put it back down.
and we all nodded solemnly.
he said he wanted to try,he told his family to stand in that thing and asked Izi to tell him how to make it go up.As he pressed the button, he took a picture.
he was suprised to see that the lift thingy had stopped.
Novo who was standing beside me and laughed silently,and i think i know what he was thinking. evil evil boy.

As i offered the man some help,as in to push the button for him and he takes the picture,he smiles and says thank you.
i smiled back. but after that i felt like laughing.
strange as it is,he thought that the four of us were from KL.

I stared in desbilief,thinking how could he possibly think that?
Izi was insulted, believe me she didnt hide it.
Haziq laughed. and Novo snickered.
and then i noticed why he thought we were Malaysians.
the way we were dressed XD

The boys wearing a black singlet,i think. with trackpants.
and me and Izi,wearing a sorta like PE t-shirt with trackpants and tudung.
i laughed then.
and then told the man that we are Singaporeans.
The man laughed and apologized. and said "oh soo cute."
and what i assumed about us looking like Malaysians was right.
The boys laughed at that.
and the man asked alot of questions.
and said thank you again to us.
though i didnt get the need f him to sau "oh soo cute" when we told them we were not local.

when i reached my hotel room,it was nearly 11,i had to rush as we had to go out by 12.by 12 we headed out.and alot of the guys were already hungry =.='
ughhh.boys,you know how they can get.

so we ate at this food court.
okay what i'm about to say may be impolite but its the truth,
the food court smelled kike dippers.
really,no kidding. even the boys agreed with me. and they were covering their noses.
our parents scolded us as it was impolite.
and at that,Novo rolled his eyes,i couldnt help but giggle.
cause i knew he felt like barfing.

We ate till 12.45pm if i'm not wrong.
and we went to shop,this time at the mall just infront of the other mall we went to the day earlier.
once we arrived,we did the same routine,split up.only this time,i was holding a phone. my sisters phone.

Alright,as me and Izi were walking,Izi decided to give the guys her phone cause she wanted the boys to scram.
i laughed when Novo said he likes shopping with girls,it was soo much fun than walking with Haziq. but he said it with sarcasm. took the phone without even a second thought and scurried off with Haziq.

Just then me and Izi passed by this shop named MCKY.
haha. i bet FD would have loved that shop.
it was full with mickey mouse stuff, from bags to bottles,to tshirts and pants,to handphone cover to pillows and alot other stuff.

And then we met the guys again,at this other shop name Brand Outlets.
The boys were trying on clothes.
Haziq waved us over and asked our opinion.
so did Novo.
i had to say they looked awesome in those clothes.

Izi smiled sweetly at her dear boyfriend wherelse Novo looked at me,then at them and rolled his eyes. i controlled myself from laughing.
and the guys went back to trying on their clothes.
and told us to wait for them as they were bored having each other around.
i looked at Novo for an explanation and he said:"i dont like talking about my sister with my mates,if you catch my drift."

i nodded,understanding his situation. he must've felt uncomfortable.
when the boys decided to buy the clothing,then when they paid,we passed by this T-shirt.
on it it says;

To do list:
Mr Popular , checked
Mr tough guy , checked
Mr Nerdy , checked
Mr Feel Love, not checked.

Izi turned to Haziq saying something about she has dated 4 of this type and he was Mr Feel love. Novo made gagging noises but they ignored him.
i laughed at him. he made a mock sad face,then laughed too.

oh then we went to this other shop were Novo bought this Tshirt that says: Hug me i am awesome.
and right after he bought it,he wore it. i burst out laughing seeing him wear that.
he smiled wickedly then said: "what? i think its cute on me."
and i laughed more. so did Haziq and Izi.

oh! then we went into this korean shop!
it was soo cool! the clothing was not the type of clothing you would ever see in singapore! i wanted to buy it,but decided not to as the prices were 199-329rm.
and Izi didnt buy it either.
The boys looked at us as of we were crazy then said: "girls,cant understand. never will understand them."
then they laughed =.='
Izi stepped on Haziq's foot for that XD

We went to a couple more shop till the boys were complaining.
they said the wanted to go to the mall we went to yesterday,so i called my mum and told her our whereabouts,she said i could go as long as i came back there before 3pm.
when we reached the other mall,the boys went to the store they wanted to go and we waited outside talking about SHINee and Big Bang and other korean artists.

Then the boys decided to go to Baskin Robbins to buy a fruit blast.
When we reached there i ordered a strawberry fruit blast.
But as i looked inside my beg,my wallet was gone!
the wallet i just bought the day before.
i double checked it and checked my shopping begs,it wasnt there,i felt like crying as i had about 200rm left.
Novo noticed i was panicked about something. he asked me why,i told him and he asked me before i checked my beg was it unzipped,and i nodded. though i told him that the beg was unzipped before we reached this mall. he told me to explain,so i did.i told him that at the Korean boutique the beg was unzipped but i was sure i saw my wallet in there before i zipped it back up.

He said he thinks it might have been an illusion.
just when he said that our orders were up-just so you know Haziq and Izi had paid and Izi was too busy flirting with Haziq to notice i was panicked- and Novo said he'll pay for my drink. I said no and he said: "You got a better idea? and it doesnt matter,its only a couple of rm."

i nodded. alright,as the people who know me,you'd think i thought i placed it in my beg,and later i found it at another place. well your wrong this time,i never found it. i called my dad to tell him,he sighed and was dissapointed in me as he trusted me with that money. but he told me not to cry as he should have known better to leave me with that kind of responsibility.

i felt like crying,Novo asks why,and as i was about to tell him,i no longer saw Izi with Haziq standing at the same place they were before.Novo noticed too,then he swore under his breath,and when i turned to hin in shock,he blushed.
blushed! Novo blushed!
i smiled and he turned into a deeper kind of red then said if he could borrow my phone to call Izi.
When Izi picked up he said he was furious at her.and said that she was selfish.
i winced at that.i knew he was talking about me.
when he give me the phone back he smiled wryly.

Then when Izi cam back she apologized to me a million times and i said it was okay.
but she still felt guilty,i turned to Novo,and saw he was looking at us,then he looked away.
But when he looked back at me,i mouthed thank you. he grinned and mouthed your welcome.

The shopping trip ended there,we were gonna head back home.
So the drive was going to be long.
and i slept,but i was aware of my surrounding,if anyone was moving i could feel it and wake up. at one point i heard my bro say: woahh. ade kerete mercedez terbakar.

and with that i woke up to see it. hey i am a singaporean after all XD
and man was it true.
it was and old mercedez though,so maybe it burned because of the heat.
and then after looking at the car i went back to sleep.

about 5 something we arrived at this food place. where we can also pray.
i saw Izi,she waved at me and then ran to me.
Novo and Haziq asked if i saw the mercedez. and while they were talking i smiled, SINGAPOREANS. haha. "kepo sey ktorg",i thought to myself. XD

Just as we were talking there was this blaring noise. horn. cars were lined up . about 7 of them and all were horn-ing. i looked tO see what was the cause of this,and saw that old woman were getting out of the car.
and i looked at the car,all singaporeans XD
haha.impatient people. they are old ladies. finally the noise stopped.

so after talking we went to pray,you know Jama' qaasar. all that.
so when me and Izi were about to take our wudhu' i couldnt help but notice a sign. it had a drawing of a phone then it was crossed out. below it,it says: TIADA PANGGILAN LEBIH PENTING DARI PANGGILAN ILAHI.

or something like that,i was overwhelemed(:
when we finished praying i asked Novo if he saw it,he said: "Yeah,i was surprised to see that. but happy too." and he smiled at me.

he asked me loads of question about my life,my friends,my studies,my school,my ambition,my goal and my personal lives too.like whether i had a boyfriend. as he asked me that i looked up at him in bewilderment and he gave me a shy smile and said sorry if it was too personal. i said it was okay and answered his question.

Then i told him i was my time to ask him the twenty questions. he laughed but answered all of them. This was what i know about him: He loves reading books,loves learning new words,loves to play soccer and rugby,loves chocolate,love animals and has a passion in writing. but he wants to be a politician or a lawyer. and he definitely loves a challenge. he hates racism. hates korean stuff. hates malay drama. hates drama XD (i wasnt surprised) hates his little sister. but when he said that,i saw him smiling,and i know he doesnt really hate her,just finds her difficult to work with. oh,and he loves to organize stuff =.='
neat freak XD

haha. alright,after that there was this jam =.='
because of a car that in the 1st lane.
to avoid this jam,daddy drove on the road shoulder XD
hahah. eh what? MALAYSIA BOLEH XD
betul pe XD

anyways,reached second link about 7 plus near 8pm i think.
i sat at table,the adults sat together,it was like breakfast all over again.
Novo looked sad but there was something that caught my eye,a schoolmate.
i looked closely,then i recognized him.
Luqman from sec 3. i think he saw me too,as he gave me a weird look. i turned away, apparently Novo saw that and asked me who was he. i gave him all dull details.
besides i dont even know that guy. except for his name.

as i was lining up for my food,Novo whispered: "Man if the were in Singapore something bad might have happened to them."
he was talking about the stalls. and how slow they did their work.
i agreed. we stood there for a total of 20 mins =.='

and the food wasnt that great either.
hahs, ishk, fatin,i know,evil. whatever,i was pissed then.
after we ate we exchanged emails and numbers.
and promised to keep intouch.

So we went off right after that but was sad to find out johor checkpoint was jam.
but there was an open lane and daddy went there, soon i found out we were no longer in a jam(:
i was happy though cause i wanted to watch Harpers Island(:
then in Singapore's checkpoint there wasnt any jam. how weird.
what was funny is that when we arrived at the counter thing The Rosli families car was beside us. i tunred and saw Novo looking and he smiled at me and waved. Izi was sleeping and so were the rest of his family. in my family i was also awake. just as my car pass by his he waved again. and i waved back.

that was the last of him i saw,then suddenly i was back home!
woohooo!
i was like Harpers island,here i come!
though i was dissapointed with the show,why didnt Jimmy die?!
it would be a better drama,but then i noticed that there were only a few episodes left. i was sad..

so there you have it. my trip to Malacca . it was a mixture of alot of things,happiness anger and sadness.
i experienced a great trip,i'm glad i went there.(:

alrgith,i gotta go,

tootles!

MALACCA [20 June]

2009-06-22T04:14:00.001-07:00

I'm back! (:
Gahhh, i had a great time slash awful time too.

Saturday; 20th June

But i'll start from the beginning,in the morning,we had to move our stuff as there are people to 'fix' our parquet because of a certain company's men damaged it =.=
ughh,you do not know how tiring it was.
Then off we went to have breakfast around 8 plus i think? Nearly nine.
We finished breakfast at 9 plus.

Then we set off to Malacca.
Gosh there was a traffic jam in Singapore
but there wasnt one at Malaysia.
Weird.
anyways,didnt do much
just slept the whole way XD

Up till my daddy said we've reached Malacca.
I woke up groggily and sleepily and looked out.
Eh, wasnt much of a beautiful view, but there were a lot of historic things.
It was cool eventhought i didnt get to see it.

Anyways,the place we stayed at was The Majestic hotel.
at first, when i was standing outside the building,it didnt even look like a five star hotel,
but then when i went inside,it pretty much did.
The outside was beautiful though,oh wait, the building was actually just the receptionist building.
But it was still cool,the hotels were behind that building that was why i thought it didnt look like a hotel.

Anyways, when we went inside the receptionist area the doorman held our door for our entrance and then the,uhm i dont know what to call her, gave us this hand towel,i stared at it then took it with reluctance.
Heh,I didnt know what the hell was i supposed to do with it.
Then my mum checked in for us, we had three rooms as my brother needs to have a room for himself. He cant go sleeping with me and my sisters or with my parents now can he?
But think about it,your own room!
How cool would that be?

Anyways,after we checked in,which was nearly 2pm in Singapore,
we decided to go out at 2.30pm as we wanted to shop(:
So all of my sisters and me prayed then got ready to go out again.
Mummy and daddy called us to their rooms.
As my sisters and I had a linked bedroom with my brother we decided to knock on his door from the inside(:

Thats when i saw there was a letter on the table,it was written Dear Misss Basithah ,
I was like OMG!
it was soo cool
i havent been in a hotel that wrote a letter, a personalised letter, to their guest.
Even if it wasnt my name,but it was still very cool.

Then as we all went to our parents rooms,daddy gave us 500 rm each.
i was schocked but thanked him.
Then of we went to go shopping, we passed the Spa,The Gym and The Swimming pool,
then when we went back to the receptionist to tell the Valley to take our car,
my daddy saw hiw workmate,Mr Rosli there with his family too.
He had a 21 year old daughter, a 16 year old son, and a 14 year old daughter.
So roughly our kind of people (:
The 21 year old girl name was Nur Sarah, the 16 year old boy was Muhd Novo Herman-cool name if you ask me- and the 14 year old girl name was Iziyanah Shazwani

I was like YEAY!
haha. that meant i had someone my age to talk to!
And when Mr Rosli saw my dad he called my dad over they started talking, apparently our mothers knew each other.
What is even weirder is that Mr Rosli used to work for my dad.
Now he was in the same company but running it at a different place.
And now he is a manager too!
Like my dad.
they talked and talked.
so i decided to make friends with the 14 year old girl.

But before that let me descibe them.

Nur Sarah: Beautiful,graceful, looks very friendly and was wearing this long dress with silk tudung and a cot and a Gucci bag and smiled sweetly at us. or was it my brother ? [ewwww]

Muhd Novo Herman: Really goodlooking,had his sunglasses on i couldnt read his expression, was wearing this sort of vestlike shirt with a fedora-he looked like harith only alot handsomer, terrible to admit but was very true- and smiled at us.

Iziyanah Shazwani: Beautiful,graceful-alot like her sister- but she wore this very cute sort like korean dress with skinny jeans and tudung cotton. She smiled at me. yes only me.

So just as i was about to talk to Iziyanah,another guy came in,i thought he was one of her family members but then i heard Novo said; Yo Haziq! and the guy came over to him and i thought they were twins or somewhat cause the looked the same or Haziq was younger, but then Mr Rosli turned to Haziq and said: Asl Haziq lambat? Tadi ibubapa Haziq telefon.
Haziq noded and asked Iziyanah whether he could borrow her hp she gave it to him then said: Baby hurry up,okay? we're gonna leave soon.

Then i was like Ahhhh. now i see,The dude named Haziq is her boyfy and what? Novo's mate?
Then the mums went to us, and their mum went to then and my mum said to me; Fatin tk ingt Iziyanah ke? Fann nan dy rapat,same dgn Novo.

Then i stole a glance at Iziyanah and Novo,Iziyanah was smiling and she did look familiar. Then when i looked at Novo,he took off his shades and looked at me then smiled.
Then said my name out loud then looked at his mum and said; Fatin, yg adk selalu main bola dgn dulu? bile dy dtg office aba?
I stared at him,i dont remember him at all!

His mum nodded then said to me ; Fatin tk ingt eh?
I shook my head.
Then the boy snickered.
I felt uncomfortable then.
But i looked away.
Then Iziyanah went to me and said; Hi!
I smiled at her then said my greeting to her.

Then we started talking,by then i figured why i most likely didnt remember them. i rarely came to the office i hated that place. it looked scary, and still do. And last i went there was when i was in p4. but i remember Iziyanah. Just not Novo.
So then the parents decided to go shopping together.
Ouh and Iziyanah introduced me to Haziq,yes her boyfriend.

Then when i went outside,boy was i gobsmacked when i saw a black Audi Q5 which is an SUV.
It was theirs.Gosh they must be really rich. Well the car isnt that expensive,actually it is,but whats more expensive is the fuel. Why do they need an SUV? they are only a family of 5?
Then when i asked Iziyanah,she said that they had an older brother. so there's 6 of them.
He's 23 named Thariq. then i was like AHHHHHH again XD

So we went to Mahkota Parade first.
There wasnt much there.
But i did buy a shoe. sneaker to be exact.
i love it(:
later one i'll post the pictures.if i have time.

Anyways, i was extremely excited when i saw Baskin Robbins 31!
haha. i have my reason,apparently so did Iziyanah. i meant she was excited too.
wanna know why?

haha. yes,i like it because i watched the commercial, as well as se7en's.
gahh anyways,sorry,sidetracked there for a while.
So me and Iziyanah bought the ice-cream but before we did. Iziyanah had a fight with her brother. well i wouldnt say a fight more like bickering.

Novo: thats stupid,buying somthing because the korean industrie commercialized it.
Iziyanah: Shut up. my interest in the korean industrie doesnt concern you.
Novo: i still think its stupid.

Then Iziyanah bought it with me. we bought this cotton candy flavour and cookies and cream with rainbow rice. we have the same interest(:
Th boys bought the fruit blast.
Novo said it wasnt that bad.
Haziq said it was sour and sweet,his kind of flavour .
Then we declared that it was a good store(:
haha. such critics XD

Anyways,after that we split up,we girls went to another mall,that was just infront of the Mahkota parade,and the first shop we went into was MNG .
mango! gahh,my favourite shop(:
I bought a clothing and so did others.
By others i mean me and my sister,and Iziyanah and her sister.
After that we went to this shope name Look it has a funny name,no doubt.
But the clothes were nice.
I bought two of them.
Then i regretted buying the other one,with the hearts,that night.
So Iziyanah asked why,i said it makes me look pregnant.She laughed her head off.
Then we went to ESPRIT also one of my favourite stores. But i bought pants only(:

we soon found the boys too.
i saw Novo's Fedora XD
when i told him that,he laughes,then said; it stands out right? good,i want it to,i dont want people thinking i'm a local.

I laughed with him.he sounds a lot like his sisters.i thought only girls cared about that.
so i decided to leave it at that,
Ahhh,after a while of shopping,we decided to head back.
But before we did,daddy said we should buy dinner.it was nearly 7 at that time.
So my family were about to buy KFC when Mr Rosli asked why. He said we could eat dinner at the restaurant in the hotel,then my dad said my family loves KFC and its alot cheaper. Mr Rosli smiles and Iziyanah suggested they eat KFC too.
So instead of eating there, we brought the food back to the hotel.

I know! haha, what were we thinking? its a five star hotel!
but when they were ordering KFC we kids (Novo,Me,Iziyanah and Haziq) asked the adults whether we could buy Baskin Robbins ice cream as well.
The dads agreed.

And so we bought it. Once we've reached the hotel we slack around abit,when Iziyanah called.
She was also on the same floor as me!
The 6th floor(:
only her room was at the other end. and mine was at the other end.
She said that they were gonna watch GRUDGE and invited my family along.
By they,i meant Mr Rosli's children.
So i invited all of my sibs,and they agreed to it too.
We told our parents then changed into our pajama's,my sisters and i with tudung too of course, and went to room 609.

That is Iziyanahs and Sarah's room.
then when we arrived with our food and ice cream they turned on the TV and switched on the DVD player and we watched it.
the whole 2 hours(the cd rosak jap =.=')
were filled with screaming,laughing and cursing(the Rosli family)

Haha. i liked it alot. But apparently,i'm going home the next day. 21 of june.
so sad. i told Izi about it but Izi was jumping up and down with joy.
why?
because she was going back on the same day,
she came there two days ago.
so i was going back the same day with her!(:

allright,i gotta go.
I'll post about 21 june soon(:

tata~

oh and found this at the website for korean stuff(:

Big Bang is going to be back with their new single very soon!

"Gara Gara GO!" is the second Japanese single that is scheduled to be released on July 8, 2009. The single will have two versions and three tracks each with the following tracklist:

1. Gara Gara GO!
2. Top Of The World
3. Stylish

1. Gara Gara GO!
2. Top Of The World
3. So Beautiful

Big Bang has been quiet for quite long, can't wait till they come back on stage to hype up the crowd!

credit: mican*@bbvipz

apparently Big Bang was busy with stuff!(:
yeay!(:
hehe cant wait!(:

Peter pan.

2009-06-13T04:15:00.000-07:00

Amazing, till now. i still can remember that story.
but not the other stories i've read in a book.

i think i watched a mivie,in 2003 actually about it.
and today it was playing,at dsney channel. only an anime.

but i found out something. he looked exactly like this guy from CSI
MIAMI. and then i checked and he is the same guy.
hahs.Jeremy Sumpter.all grown up.
and still looking cute(:
oh! and.
OMG Farihin check this out!
BLAIR WALDORF!
BLONDE!
which is actually her natural colour right?

plus my cutest actor, Jeremy Sumpter.
and what a scandalous act XD

gahh. today was really fun(:

gee,i gotta go.
mum is not happy abt me being on the comp.

tata~

Key 키 | Kim Ki Bum 김기범 | Almighty Key | Key umma | KimKey

2009-06-12T08:09:00.000-07:00

awwwwh! KEY IS SOO CUTE!

• His hometown is Daegu (South Korea).
• He is the "middle" SHINee member (@ age 17).
• His stage name is Key because he likes to solve things.
• He is a dog lover! (He has a pet dog back at home.)
• He is the "triple-threat" in SHINee-- he is gifted with skills in singing, rapping, & dancing. Hence his 'Almighty' title.
• He is very talkative & out-going.
• He does not like fermented soybean stew.
• He wears contacts/glasses.
• He likes Spongebob Squarepants.
• He has a total of five ear-piercings.
• He has a pair of key & lock (mismatched) earrings.
• He can speak (but is not necessarily fluent in) a total of 4 languages-- Korean, Japanese, Mandarin, & English. (The other SHINee members say that his M. & E. skills are the most proficient among them all.)
• He has quick reflexes (reactions).
• He likes to watch dramas/movies.
• He likes photography.
• He keeps a journal/diary.
• He (sort of) cooks & does chores; he is known as Key umma (Korean term for "mother").
• He auditioned for SM Entertainment in 2005 and again in 2006. During his 2nd audition, only 2 people were to be accepted; he was one of them.
• He was a Daegu water sports (water-skiing) representative during his junior high days.
• He practices his facial expressions in front of a mirror.
• He studied in Los Angeles, California (USA) when he was younger.
• He does not know how to wash rice.
• He takes very good care of his belongings.
• He is known as one of SHINee's most fashionable members.
• He is good at imitating other people/things.
• He is afraid of heights.
• He likes AND hates horror movies at the same time.
• He shares a bunk-bed with SHINee member MinHo. He takes the top bunk while MinHo takes the bottom.
• He can pull-off wearing pink. ;]
• He loves cameras; he is good at spotting them. (He has a "camera-radar.")
• He would like to visit Taiwan one day. (The 1st thing he wants to do there: shopping. He finds the fashion to be "very cool.")
• Loved ones he often gives thanks to are his parents & grandmother.

?? he shares a bunk with Minho? i thought it was Jonghyun?
haha. kayy i admit. even though me may seem gay,he has a cute personality.
gosh he's cute((:

B O R E D

2009-06-12T06:14:00.001-07:00

LOOK:

SHINEE??? WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM? MAINLY,KEY IN PARTICULAR =.=

and OMG. ewww. haishh. key key, why does he look so gay-ish here? and also all of them look gay too! well like girls,but key looks like a GAY =.='

and i aint the only one thinking Key is being ridiculous. and so are the rest i mean MIHO! OMFG! wth happened to the deep guy? he is showing skin now too? Jonghyun,Taemin and Onew dont look like girls,they just look gay . but OMFG! Key! you look like a girl and a gay!

here are what the people said at this website;
"I lied. Continue rant. Who the hexagon is choosing Key's getup? On Music Bank, he sported a haystack that matched the yellow on his shirt. Music Core's color-change slightly mitigated the worries of some Key fans, but Inkigayo... Inkigayo's look is a crime against eyes everywhere. When I asked my friend the name of that pink halter-top-ish thing Key wore, she said "I should just look up my top and see what it's called." Hot pink halter-top plus pale pink tight pants equals a big no-no. Stay out of SNSD's closet, Key, even if they got their Gee pants from your group. But seriously, somebody needs to get punished for this. If stylists chose this outfit, they should be banned from all closets and dressing rooms. Even their own. If Key chose this... he should have to change into his outfit from "Talk to You" in front of 500 SHINee World members. That sounds fair.

Minho also shows a lot of skin, but at least you can tell what gender he is without a second glance. And that boy just looks good in green. But why are they wearing bugs? I guess I'll just never grasp the semantics of K-Pop fashion."

hahh. so true. haishh.i used to like SHINee alot. now its become lesser. btw,what happened to Big Bang? All i hear about are Seung-ri maknae and Daesung Hyung. what happened to GD and TOP? And Taeyang just released his album. what happened to Big Bang? n wait,TOP and Seungri are in a movie,titled '19'. what happened to GD?

here's the preview.

ouh and atleast at their second comeback stage he looks better. cute even.i hate that he dyed his hair. =(
but i like the style. but still,KEY, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?
but sadly,they still dress like gays. maybe its their stylist. OMFG. i couldnt even look at their outfit. HORRIBLE. okay when a girl wears it its cute.
dont get me wrong i LOVE SHINee. but seriously?
what happened? i used to think they were cool.

SHINEE;

Found their dance MV. hmm. they are still cute though. but i think the may have become Kinky. haishh. i hate saying that as i really like them alot.
hmmm,key is still cute though(:

oh and its official KEY DYED HIS HAIR!
Key! what were you thinking?! haiishh.

and apparently its normal for korean boys to camwhore O.o

ouh look. how cute. they have comics XD
and Fan-art of course.
but wth is with the flower wallpaper?

and the doll? lol i dont know whose bed this is but i think its Taemin's cause he sleeps at the top bed. and the rest? Minho below Taemin,Onew in the middle,and on the left side Jonghyun at the top and Key below him. but idk,maybe they changed their places now? lol. cause key used to sleep at the middle. jonghyun at the top taemin below him. Onew at the right top and below him Minho.=.=
*confused*

and why do i know this? well watch their reality TV show. or the SAVE ENERGY SONG.
and you'll see that my assumption is right(:

Oh! and they went to New Zealand,READ THIS;

SHINee shows off their boyish charms in recently revealed pictures taken in New Zealand. These pictures were taken in March when they were abroad from 23rd to the 29th for a Mobile Star photoshoot. Taking advantage of the beautiful natural scenery and even going to the city to use it as a backdrop, they finished their photoshoot by showing off their adolescent charm in New Zealand. A source complimented the 5 SHINee boys, "They were able to perfectly go from being pure warm-hearted boys in nature to being cool and chic boys in the city."

Mobile Star is a system by mobile communication company Danal where you can use your cellphone to look up pictures of stars in their daily life. Currently, fan clubs of DBSK, Super Junior, Big Bang, SS501, Girls Generation, Kara, and fans of actors Kim Myung Min, Kim Bum, Dennis Oh use it as well. Fans of SHINee can use their cellphones to meet their fans through this program as well as by going on their official homepages [SM Town, UFO Town] to register and receive text messages. In addition, for the opening of this New Zealand photoshoot, 30 SHINee fans who register on the mobile starblog by the 20th, will have a chance to win an autographed Romeo mini-album.

Here are the pictures. Although the first picture kind of reminds you of Frodo and his fellow Hobbits from The Lord of the Rings movie trilogy. But they are still gorgeous.

and pictures;

anyways,i have nothing to do.
finished studying, and i am eating an orange XD
hahh. so bored. and he's busy.
yeah i get it, sister is getting married tomorrow and all.

hmmmm.

yeay! my brother is back with food!
i gotta go.
me hungry XD

Tata~

P/S: SHINee Fans look at this :

http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/what_does_shinee_do_in_their_bedrooms

you have to. its quite interesting

Like Blair? really? hahah.

2009-06-12T03:46:00.000-07:00

Hi Hi(:

alright today was quite fun for me.
did some stuff in the morning.
then afternoon went visit my grandmother(:

and all of my cousins were there.
it felt like a reunion.
((:

anyways, ugghhh. this is the part that i hate,
my cousin bought Durian .
i dont eat it.
and neither can i smell it,
ughh,

anyways, i felt intoxicated by the smell
so i decided to go out. but still i can smell it cause i was only outside of the house.
ughhh.

i hate the smell.
oh i heard something funny i said when i was really young. my aunt told me.
i said something about eating durian isnt good for us.
they asked me why wasnt i eating the durian then i said i dont like it.
and they asked why so i said; tak bgs makan durian. nnT mulut bau busuk. malaikat tak nk dekat.

Hahah XD
dont lame me.
i was a child back then.
i didnt know what i was saying.

((:
ooh. found out that a friend of mine is also going to Malacca the same week as me(:
hahh. it wouldnt be a suprise if i met him there.
Malacca isnt that big.

ohh. i took a test just now at Facebook.
guess what the title is Farihin?

WHICH GOSSIP GIRL ARE YOU?

and Far guess who i am?
thats right.
BLAIR WALDORF. O.o

Am i realy that bitchy? XD
haha. here's the description of why so.

"Blair Waldorf (full name: Blair Cornelia Waldorf) was born into high society on Manhattan's Upper East Side. Blair Waldorf is vain, though her friendship insecure at times. Perhaps as a result, she has become known as Queen B - useing her charm, money and social clout to win people over. Blair is also a hopeless romantic who idolizes Audrey Hepburn, classic movies and upscale traditions, but whose sensitive side often clashes with her tendency to be bitchy and controlling."

So now, tell me Farihin. doyou think i'm really like her??
lol.

CHECK IT OUT. i have a boring life =.='

2009-06-10T21:35:00.001-07:00

[hehh. KEY!(: yeay!((:]
Yeaap. that's my plan for the june holidays.
i know. boring aint it?
but i have no choice.
i cant go out.
except for the class outing.
daddy says its exceptional.

ughhh! this is excruciating!
i need some air man..
being stuck at home,with nothing to do but studying is getting boring.
hey dont get me wrong,i have borrowed 8 books,but even that cant keep me from wanting to kill myself right now =.='

i'm soo god damn bored.
i guess that explains why i'm blogging.
hmmmm. even being on the computer is getting boring to me.
i have nothing to do.

now,boyfy isnt much help =.='
he's stressed about his sisters wedding.
stupid.
his sister is getting married not him XD
haha. kayy kidding.

haishhh.
nothing to do.
oh did you know i have finished 4 of the books i borrowed?
yeahhh.i kinda speed read.
i dont know why.
but i know when it started,
p6.
i dont remember how,but it just started.
i know lame sey =.='

i miss MY CLASSMATES! =(
i miss school O.o
i miss boyfy =(
but mostly,i miss the friend i thought i had.
pfffft. oh wait i dont.
ughh. whatever lah. i dont know what to think.

haisssh. i miss 6j the most(:
girls,are we going to celebrate our 1 year 3 months? on the 22?
i'm not sure i can go out,but i'll work out something...

ughhh.i gotta go,need to clean up my book department =.='

Much LOVE;
Fatin

life is boriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing . haha. happy birthday,birthday boy(:

2009-06-10T09:08:00.000-07:00

well i got to watch Hannah montana with my sibs though.
and her friend kak Falah(:
it was fun,but i think the series was funnier.
no i KNOW it is.
hmm. my life's been boring =.='

really,nothing to do,except study.
oh wait! i went to the library.and i borrowed abt 8 books(:
and no none of them are malay XD

haha. oh now is 12.10am on 11 june.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND FADHIL(:
haha. basket tk ingt org.
but i forgive you.
and poor you for having to do the planning.
but have fun(:

and do come to irsyad's carnival(:

i gotta go now.i have tusyen.
nights people. sorry for not updating.

bye

PRISONER.

2009-06-05T22:01:00.001-07:00

ughhh.
being grounded is soo boring.
by grounded i really mean grounded.
i cant even go out with my cousins without my family members.
i can only go out with my family.
which i s a bore.
dont get me wrong, i love my family.
but they just dont share the same interest as me.

really.like when i wanted to go to the comics store at Westmall.
they disagreed. why you may ask?
because they think its stupid.
i swear,i feel like a prisoner.

i cant use my comp,but i can now,cause i've been studying a lot.
no calling people.
they have to call me.
no TV.
and no movies!
can you believe it?
ughhh.
i wanted to watch Hannah Montana with my aunt and my girl cousins.
i mean come on,she was offering to buy a ticket for me.
who wouldnt want to go right?

then there's Transformers 2.
haishh.
nvm. i understand why though.
i meant why my parents are doing this.

i kinda deserve it.
haishh.
well i gotta go.
clean my room and do my chores.
the study some more.

Much LOVE;
Fatin

P/S: HAVE A HAPPY HOLIDAY EVERYONE! :D
i found this link.

i think would like to take a look at it.
nis, taemin dyed his hair. and has a new haircut .
O.o
and so does Key.
i hate his new hair colour.
but the hairstyle is nice.

http://prettyboys10245.wordpress.com/2009/05/04/shinee-new-haircuts-2/

=.='

2009-05-26T07:03:00.000-07:00

This day sucks.

well okay lets start from the beginning.
hmmm.woke up and my body was still aching.
hmph. then today was very very hot.

oh. but there was only 1 great thing.
we went to botanical gardens(:

well,we had to be facilitators.
by we,i mean the sec 2's
we had to take care of our p5's and p6's.
cute huh?(:

haha. anyways, eventhough it was very humid,
we the sec 2 cordovas still had fun(:

ohh. and we took a few pictures.
ohhh. and ughhh,the 2nd part of my worst day.
the bottom zip,at my ankle i meant,broke.
=.='
and u didnt have a pin.

then the 3rd part.
kept seeing him and his friends.
everywhere we turn up,they are always there.
gosh,i think his friend knows,and i have a feeling that he does too =.='
now who could've told them?
Z said it could have been Q.
hmph.stupid i trusted him,
how could he tell D?

pffft. thats it.
no more trusting Q.
then the last worst thing,
MY MP4 WAS STOLEN.

idiot. whoever stole it.
suke hati kau lah nak curi.
aku tk kesah ahs.
except for the earpiece,it was a gift =(

sorry H.
hmph. idiot.
hmph. tkpe2. ade hikmah disebaliknya.

sabar jek fatin(:
and thanls to my girl classmates(:

ouh. another worst thing.
grandpa and grandma are not visiting today.
they are coming tomorrow.
=(

and i was really looking forward to seeing them.
oh well.
anyways,i gotta go.
its late.

PICTURES;BOTANICAL GARDEN.

=.='
cant upload the rest,
maybe next time.

Much LOVE;
Fatin

thank you(:

2009-05-25T01:31:00.000-07:00

HELLO HELLO(:
heh. i'm bored.
so i decided to blog.
okay so before this i was really really sick.
my temperature was near 39.
=(
but now i'm better,a bit.
my body feels sore though.
okay maybe i should start from the beginning.

i woke up at around 9 to go to the doc.
to get an injection.
you know to prevent chicken pox.

but but,one of the side effects is FEVER.
uffff. thank goodness i'm feeling better.
if not i wont be able to come to school tomorrow!
and i cant play for our interhouse.
anyways,when i woke up i was happy.
i woke up at around 3.30.
and i slept at 1.30.
hehh.
i woke up cause someone was calling me =.='

but i wasnt mad anymore when i found out who it was,
more like a suprised.
hmmm. thanks(:
thanks to you i'm smiling now(:

anyways,he told me to watch this video as he knows how much i like SHINee.
yeay! finally SHINee has released theire 2nd album Romeo((:
i like the song but it sounds like You're like oxygen.
hmmm.i hate songs that are the same.
but i kinda like this one for a reason((:
and and thanks! i liked the song very much.hehh.

i personally like it alot though.
and gosh,Key is getting hotter((:
and cuter.
they're all abit different,i guess because of their hair do's.
hmmm. but they look very very handsome(:
all of them. even maknae Taemin and Hyung Onew(:
but KEY is still exceptionally hot. hehh
though i gotta admit one thing,they look like gays wearing that rainbow T-shirt =.='
they really do have poor taste.
now Big Bang has taste((:

hehh. thats right,as much as i like SHINee,i still love Big Bang :D
woohooo.

OH! and i found this at a site:

SHINee World rejoice - SHINee has shone through their toothy issues with the release of the MV for their new single, "Juliette", featuring Krystal Jung, sister to SNSD's Jessica ahead of their comeback next week.
The MV's concept is based on the initial meeting of the title characters in William Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet, in which Romeo sees Juliet from afar at a masquerade ball. The song's lyrics, written by Jong Hyun, may not be Shakespearean sonnets, but I doubt Shakespeare's ball had dance moves like SHINee's. You might have qualms with the song itself, as it's a remake of Corbin Bleu's "Deal With It", but you have to admit that they have that special something whenever they dance. I can't wait to see the entire choreography on a performance stage - especially the bridge's pentagonal shifting and whatever fresh moves Taemin may unveil. One of the first things about SHINee that caught people's attention was their sharp choreography, and this new dance is definitely awesome enough for noonas to replay.

huh. its a remake? =.='
oh well.and cool. Jong Hyun made it((:
now,isnt the leader onew?
ohhs, i cant wait for the song Jonghyun and Onew are singing, Please Don't go.
hehh.its nice(:
but too bad Key isnt singing.
but i gotta admit Key's voice wont match this song.
now why didnt they put minho to sing too?
he has a great voice. and so does taemin.and also key.
hmmm.oh well. the song is still nice(:
i've only listened to their preview.

ouh and this news is also saddening;

SHINee's Onew needs his two front teef! Apparently, he fell and received an injury... to his mouf.

SM Entertainment revealed on the 20th, "On the 19th after practice, Onew fell on the stairs in front of his dorm and was injured." The doctor said, "Upon his fall, his incisors were dislocated. Onew will have to receive treatment and be placed under observation for about 1-2 weeks." Unfortunately for everyone, their comeback will have to be delayed until Onew's teeth grow back. Well, re-inserted. SHINee was planning to make their comeback on the 22nd via KBS2TV Music Bank. Their mini-album scheduled for release on 21st May, will be delayed till 27th May.

haha. poor onew. and the whole album will be released on the 27 may? wahhh.

anyways,i gotta go.
need to clean up my room.
My OPAH is coming to my house tomorrow :D

Much LOVE;
Fatin

Geee.. how long has it been?(:

2009-05-22T03:53:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE OF THE WORLD(:
haha, kayyy.
ecstatic fatin is back(:

i'm happy and a bit sad.
cause of my results,duhh.
what reason would i need to feel sad if it werent for that.
but i am also extremely happy that i got MS for Quran!(:

ALHAMDULILLAH(:
maybe me hafal-ing like a crazed person did pay off XD
Haha. anyways, i've gotten all of my papers.
except Insya'.

Grrrr.. ustaz D ni.
alamak XD
haha. okay not his fault.
poor him he has to mark soo many papers.

anyways,i failed four =.='
i know what a loser.
haha, and the rest boarder line passes.
pffft.
my daddy isnt gonna like this.

oh well.
what to do?

anyways,just went online for a very long time.
hah. and got a message from HIM.
now how long has it been since we actually talked?
and now you want my number?
hmmmm.
i may miss you,the old you that is,
but idk. you've changed alot.
oh,and then there's the stranger who wont tell me his name =.='
leave me alone freak.

anyways,
i bought an mp4.
its green in colour(:

lol. sorry nawiwu .
it was just too pretty,i had to have it(:
haha. jgn marah aku eh besok.
ohh. speaking of tomorrow.
i gotta go,
need to hafal (:

Much LOVE;
Fatin

EXAMS ARE OVER!

2009-05-08T04:24:00.000-07:00

Haha. well not really.
just the academic papers.
yeay!
after this we'll be taking our ukhrawi papers!
yeay uhkrawi papers!
=.='

yes.i was being sarcastic.
of course i was. i meant i havent memorize a single thing.
except for tauhid and hadith.
which means i'm left with fiqh and tafsir.
ahhhhhhhh,
i cant wait for exams to be finally over.
okay.i'll give y'all the recap of my paper.

4 may; SCIENCE (okay okay ah)
5 may; maths paper 1 (a bit easier than paper 2)
6 may; malay paper 2 & 3 (easy)
7 may; english paper 2 (quite easy)
8 may(today); Maths paper (damn.it was hard)

=.='
somehow i dont think i did well in my midterms.
soo sad.
but i'll try harder for my uhkrawi papers.
insyaallah i'll pass(:

ouhs.wow. just got a bad news from Z.
hope he's okay.
he's been a better friend than HIM.
hmmm.i gotta go.
i'll promise to post soon.

some friend you are.

2009-05-05T03:35:00.000-07:00

I'm done with all this.
Sick of it.
Sick of pretending.

you can go to hell for all i care.
no wait.
that was too mean.
ughhh.

what happened?
you used to be my bestest friend.
you were always there when i needed you.
then just like thin air,poof.
you are gone.

wth?
and since when were you ever fond of 'that girl'
everysince you both started talking,
you ignored me.
what kind of bestfriend is that?

what kind of sick and twisted bestfriend would leave his bestfriend to crumple up and cry when she needed him the most?
some friend.
you said you were gonna be there for me always,
and whats happening now?
you act as if we're not friends?
and the guy of all people to become my closefriend is becoming more of a friend that you are right now.
ironic isnt it?

hahs.right about now.
i prefer him to you.
you can get by a car and get seriously injured i wouldnt even care.
even HF was there for me!

him!
who hated you being friends with me!
hated you being soo close to me!

and there he was comforting me,
and what suprises me most is that he didnt talk trash about you.
but when i was sad bout HF,you did.

you said i am making a stupid choice,maybe i am.
maybe i am being stupid for wanting him back.
but all i know is that i'm following my heart.

and what i am gonna say is most likely gonna hurt you.
but i dont give a damn anymore.
cause i doubt i need you anymore.

"I am sorry i never ever met you"

stings doesnt it?
do me a favour,
dont come crying to me when you start having problems asswhole.

and maybe our friendship was a faux friendship.
who knew,eh?

P/S: thank you girls for the comments on my tagboard. i'm okay now.(:
and everythings fine.

you are nothing but cruel

2009-05-02T08:32:00.000-07:00

H: Fatin, you are my everything. Eventhough i know i have hurt you soo many times and made you mad at me ,i love you like hell. you dont know how much. but i cant, i cant continue this. i cant bear to know that i will be hurting you almost everyday . to know that your precious tears are my fault. i cant fatin.i cant hurt you anymore. i'm torn. i dont deserve you. your love. all this.

Those words stung. it felt like a stab in my heart.
a knife cutting through it.and making all the blood ooze out.
till the heart beats no more and nothing is left.

i hated him.
i hate him.
i dont care how sweet those words were.
i hate you.

girls,i need you.
bestie i need you. i'm sorry. i dont want to fight. please please . and i know you're reading this.

exams are sooo near. how could he? how could you be soo cruel?
i've had enough of life.
all the bullshit.
all these problems.
as if i dont have enough to think about.

i wish i could just dissepear into oblivion.
i wish...i wish that i had the courage to do what i want.
i wish had that will power to take over my life.
that will power to forget you......

O.o exams are near!

2009-04-30T15:22:00.000-07:00

O.o

EXAMS ARE NEAR! damn it. i havent finish studying for science! and thats my first paper =.='

ughhhh.with insya' . on 4 may.
lol.poor nis. and bstie.
birthday during exams.
tsk tsk.
haha.
okay i'm talking crap right now.
you cant blame me.
all the stress is coming to me already.
my head hurts =(

anyways,supposedly to be studying with the girls-by girls i meant 6j and our featuring-but i couldnt make it.
sorry girls.
but we are still on for tomorrow,right?
when 07 comes back?
cause i can go tomorrow. oh oh! it will be after tahfiz(:
and we're all in the same tahfiz class.
i've told y'all that right?
that 01,04,05,06,07 & 08 are all together. including myself.
plus there are 3 more, 13,15 and 29.(:
and 25. but she's at a different mosque.
wow. thats about 11 people!(:
and the girls in our class have 17 people.
thats already 3 quarter of the class.
heh. and our goal is : TO BE A HAFIZAH BY SEC 5(:
INSYAALLAH,
AMIN(:

It is times like this that i appreciate being a madrasah student. ughhh. but its time like that is when i hate the school, =.='
okay technically i dont actually hate the school.
its okay, but seriously. 2 topics of nahu from book 3 in just a week to study?
you've got to be kidding me right?
Poor Ustaz D,he's trying he's best,and we all from sec 2 cordova know it.
i dont think its fair though.
hmph.

but then what do they know bout fair?
anyways,whats even stranger is that Ustazah M seemed mad at us for not having an exercise.it was not fair.
it wasnt our fault the relief teacher didnt give us the homework when she didnt came.
then there's the last minute revision of fiqh.
not really ustazah's fault.
cause she could have taught us,during her lessong,but we had our english & malay paper 1.

on 29.04.09,
we had our malay paper 1.
i dont think i did well.
hmmm. but we'll have to see.

then 0n 30.04.09,
which was also yesterday,
was our english paper 1.
i did bad for situational writing as i forgot the format =.='
i know. but i guess cause i slept late.
talking on the phone with someone.
gee.thanks for keeping me awake.
and thanks for most likely making me not get an A1 .
ughhh, but i'm not sure how i did for the compo itself.
i dont think i did well though.
i know,that sucks.

ughh. but whatever.
whats done is done.'=
we cant change it.
and yipppe i cant wait for exams to come! =.="
notice my faux enthusiasm.
hahs.

anyway,an update about our oral quran.
it will be one the 18 may.
alhamdulillah(:
haha.okay atfirst i wasnt at all thrilled that they changed our date.
but thabk goodness it will be on the 18,cause our exams end on the 15. then on the 16 i am most likely taking the Himpunan test at tahfiz - yeay pink book!- haha. then on 18 may-which is on a monday,and did i meantion everyone isnt at school? as it says ; PUPILS OFF( marking papers)

dont you think we are special? XD
haha.anyways,i am going to memorize it and keep memorizing it so i wont forgot.
and so that i can get MS.
Insyaallah.
and hopefully the whole class can get MS- Mumtaz Sharaf- .heh
INSYALLAH
AMIN(:

alright,i gotta go.
but i will most likely not write soon. except for tomrrow.
once i've come home after the study sush.
insyaallah my next entry will be on the 15 of may.
when i announce that exams are finally over.
and give y'all the recap of what i think of the paper.

XOXO;
Fatin :D

How long has it been? 8 days?

2009-04-25T09:36:00.000-07:00

Hah.
I shouldnt even be here.
I meant blogging.
Mummy is gonna have a fit if she knows i'm still awake XD

haha.anyways,i just had to post.
I cant sleep,thanks to sleeping in the afternoon -.-'
ughhh. anyways,hmmm.okay.i forgot what i wanted to talk about.

oh right! 8 days?! are u kidding me?!
hmmph. has it really been that long?
ouhs well,what to do?
exams are near.

speaking of studies,hah,i think it was wednesday on the 22nd of april i went to Bishan library to study with bestie. lol.i didnt know he was that smart.
anyways,he kept laughing at me. or with me. well i'm not sure.
but whatever it was he was laughing. i'm glad he's kinda happy. he's been very different lately.hmmm,oh well. oh in case y'all are wondering,he thought me maths and science. though i didnt really need that much help in maths, i could've studied by myself, but eh,i guess i wanted t see just how smart he is.

heh. anyways,on thursday i didnt get to go to netball.
unfortunately,i am banned from playing netball.
ever again.
meaning i cant play for inter-mad.
whatevs, i'm done fighting back.
done telling her what are my rights.
so yeah sorry girls,i guess i have to wait for my mid-terms and my results then i'll know if i can still be on the team.
i miss playing netball soo much!
hmph.

okay so friday,well it was nice.
i got money XD
lol.kcian sey dektu dpt $4 jek.
but it doesnt matter anyway,i didnt want to do that for the money.
oh to those who dodnt know what the hell i'm blabbering about,i'm talking abt irsyad's tabung jumaat.
SECONDARY 2 CORDOVA with all the sec 4's and sec 5's had to go.
and why only sec 2 cordova?
because the last tabung jumaat,the boys from our class didnt get to go.
i know poor them.
and since Ustaz D is soo very nice and thoughtful,he let us go.
but but,he overlook one thing.
which was we had our oral quran at 2.30!

okay i know,not reasonable.
but let me finish first.
uhm,after the tabung jumaat,our oral,by our i meant my class, was cancelled.and posponed to another day.
i know! wth??! buat penat jek hafal!
but at the same time Alhamdulillah(:
cause my hafalan wasnt hmmmm,how do you say it?
lancar? lol. yeah. that i guess.

anyways,i was at Masjid Mydin (lol kcian atira,si arif tu,almk)
me and nisa were at there . atira and shaliza was at Masjid Kassim eh?
ah yeah,just around the corner. hahs.
anyways, that place was gorge!
by gorge i meant gorgeous! really!
its between bungalows(or was it terrace?) anyways,it looked like a home.

anyways,once we were there we stood around cause i mean come on it was 11+.
so early mahh.
okay so we started to do our job at what 12.10?
people started coming by then.
but shockingly there were more teens than adults.
okay so i saw a...uhm....friend?
not sure how to put it.but i knew him from frenster.
so yeah. i guess friend.

so we did what we were supposed to and OMG! the people there are damn rich!
haissh. seriously. really rich. obviously they have to be right?
i meant some of them put 50 bucks into our tins.
i meat irsyad's hahs.
some of them money the put in our pockets. so thoughtful(:
oh and the "orang2 masjid" very very thoughtful and caring. they offered us an umbrella cause it was friggin' hot. and they gave as mineral water. no wait. COLD mineral water.i know. so sweet.
ouhs then at around 2.10 i think they pakcik picked us up.
and off we went to school to face our Ustaz and Ustazah's .
bracing ourselves for our oral.

but when we reached there we didnt even get to take it =.='
i was miffed but also glad .
but now we dont even know when is our oral gonna be.
ughh. no they didnt tell us.
okay friday done.
ouh wait, dy kene detention =(
kcian XD
haha.kay evil.

uhm today,went to tahfiz as usual.
nabilah's and faiqah's entry test was today.
well technically yesterday cause its already 1 pm.
CONGRATULATIONS GIRLS!(:
they got in.
heh.
then after that i had tuition.
then went out to study with HF.
haishhh.i missed........

alright i gotta go.
but i wont promise to be back soon. exams are friggin' near.
bye!(:

*ouhs and i also found out that a certain frienemy of mine think i'm expressionless and mysterious at school. hah. more like vice versa*

Arabic programme

2009-04-17T06:35:00.000-07:00

Arabic programme(:

haha.it was deffinitely fun.
incredibly fun.
shukran thaani thanawi qurtubah(:
kte saaaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnng krg(:

haha.damn it.
my voice was comical XD
or so he said. evil evil nut .i hate you XD
haha.okay kidding. i dont mean it at all.

anyways,like i said. damn it.i sound soo funny.
but other than that i had fun.
ohs and bestie was evil. haha. sengaje sey kau dudok depan skali.
beh senyum2 alamakk.lempang kau baru kau tau XD

ooohs! today wasnt soo bad.i like today.i think i'm starting to like fridays(:

anyways,i was chatting with kak aina and she said that we did good(:
for our arabic programme. yeay kak aina! haha. thank you kak :D

hmmm.okay...i'm still really bored. bestie is playing takraw =.='
yelahhhh.sape lah aku kan? XD

OUH! and nyari balik nmpk an unexpected person. haha.
FD and My old sweetheart XD
and Teewa's now.
hah XD

FD,YOU KNOW I KNOW XD
lol. okay lame.

............

still bored.

............

bored-er.

............

bye!(:

BORED.STRESSED.HURT.CONFUSED.HAPPY? Lol. mixed feelings right now.

2009-04-17T05:49:00.000-07:00

yeap! mash all of that together and you'll get what i'm feeling right now.
hmmm. anyways,to cheer me up. anyways,i did some funny quizzes on facebook and i got funny answers. haha. some are weird .but most are true(:

HERE ARE THE QUIZZES;

Q: what wedding dress fits you?
A: The Sincerity Dress;You have inspiration, sincerity and spirituality, and you like to broaden your perspective in learning new information. You don't get angry very easily and you tend to be calm most of the time.

*Hmmmmmm.i'm not sure if thats true XD haha,i'm easily frustrated. but not all the time of course*

Q:what word best describes you?
A: WEAK; Grow a backbone! People have a tendency to use you as a doormat. You need to stand up for yourself more and learn to tell people, "No".

*Hhaa.now this is true. i dont know why i cant say no to most people =.=' *

Q:what does your birthday mean?
A:You love life and exude an outgoing, cheerful vibe.
Blessed with a great sense of humor, you can laugh at adversity.
Your soul reflects: Respect, desire, and generosity
Your gemstone: Aquamarine
Your flower: Daffodil
Your colors: White and light blue

*HMMM. mostly ture. except about the flower quip. i dont even know what Daffodoils are XD and i do not have a great sense of humor. hmmm. does laughing at every little thing says that i have a great sense of humor? cause i dont think so*

Q:what type of friend are you?
A:THUG; Your a true friend who doesn't take any shxt when it comes to your crew. Your down for whatever.Your a very laid back type of person until something breaks out. You have a "mess with them mess with me" kind of attitude.

*haha. that is true.now dont any of you dare mess with my friends XD*

Q:who are you from twilight?
A: Alice Cullen; You are like Alice Cullen, you are the cute little one of your family, you can see things that will come to pass but only one someone mind is made up. You are a true and loyal friend and lover. You will do whatever it takes to keep safe your loveones.

*haha,cool! i like alice(: *

Q:How well do you know the Twilight Saga?
A:Big twilight fan; You've read the books, watched the movie, loved them all... You can't wait for the new movie to come out, you're just like me!

*haha. yeay! now that is really really true. and in case you dont think so here's something that will make you think otherwise. i've read twilight 4 times. new moon 3 times. eclipse twice. and breaking dawn thrice(: *

Q: *i dont remember,it says somethin like am i spoilt,optimist or soildier?*
A: you are always happy and wise.success i always guaranteed to you and you can succeed in anything you want.you may or may not know how to control your emotions.

haha. okay that is really really not true. anyways,i gotta go.

hafal-ing to do .
ughh.baru ayat 10?
lagi 19?!

wahhh.soo long mahh.

2009-04-05T07:21:00.000-07:00

It must have been ages till i wrote anything here.
hmmm. i miss writing. but i just didnt feel like doing so sometimes.
anyways,i'll start with my new gifts(:
some of them were birthday gifts and some were for apologies, which was really sweet, though it wasnt necessary cause i'd forgive him eithere way. anyways, these are the gifts;

This gift was from munaww(:
cute aint it?

This is Fadii's(:
sweet wasnt it? Boyf was troubled.hahh.

This is Eemaawns(:
it was delicious.

This was DYT's.(:
haha,choc! XD

THAT WAS ALL THE GIFTS(:

malas ah nk upload gmbr lagi.hmmmm.just now went o study at raffles nye mcdonald.it was fun(:
yeay! walked in the drizzling rain and over the Cavenagh bridge with HF(:
heh. and oh! bought New moon and Eclipse. well i didnt actually buy it. someone else did(;

hmmm.i gotta go now,have school tomorrow. yeay! friends! hahas. (:

ouhs an i found this new vid of big bang(:

OMG. cute sey big bang(:
haha.and nis! T.O.P pkai yellow!(:
and GD pkai pink XDD
Too bad naww,V.I pkai biru(:
But GD still very very cute.(:

B I G B A N G

2009-03-24T04:01:00.000-07:00

YEAY! (:
NEW SKIN!
haha. eh btw, the ones who i havent link sorry eh. tkde time
nak hafal ah(:

SHOTA SHIMIZU(: (OR IS IT SHIMIZU SHOTA??)

2009-03-24T03:07:00.000-07:00

DAMN. his voice is great!
woahh.it makes me all goey inside.
and so does the song(:
suddenly i have an interest in japanese songs too(:

My Treasure - 清水翔太

AND THAT IS NOT THE ONLY SING THAT HE SINGS . theres others(:
hehh.thnks boyf(:

アイシテル Aishiteru - Shota Shimizu 清水翔太

the one above is also one of my favourites(:

and this is my new favourite(:

Diggin On You - Shimizu Shota

ALL GONE. Like POOOOF

2009-03-23T06:54:00.000-07:00

3years.3 years of laughter,smiler,fears,tears .
GONE. ALL GONE.
*shakes head*

How? even i dont know.
it.....it just happened so ....quickly.
*sighs*

How did it come to this?
to the extand for you to say; SHUT UP FATIN,JUST GO TO HELL.
How did that happen?

Who did that come from?
Certainly it couldnt have been you,right?
What happened to that sweet guy i knew?

That guy who looked after me like i was his little sister,
like i was family,
like we were the bestest friends.
He once said,i was a sister he never had,
but wanted to.
i miss that guy

That guy who was my crying shoulder,
who was always there,
who made me laugh at the little things,
who always made me smile,
who listened to me,
who cared about what i thought of him,
who took care of me,
who knew me soo well.

I cant believe i lost him.
3 years.GONE. wasted.
vanished. just like *POOOOF*
like flushing a goldfish down a toilet bowl.
like shredding a paper into pieces.

and worst of all.
it ended in the worst way possible.
wow. emotions are flying.

and by emotions i meant;
hurt,sad,anger,lost.
everything.

*shakes head*
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
just.....idk.
really am sorry.

guess we were wrong huh?
friends dont last forever.
even our friendship proved that stupid phrase.

idk what the hell is wrong with me.
it feels like i'm lost.
you were like a tour guide to me.

i just wanna say. im sorry.
truely,deeply,utterly sorry.

Confessions of a shopaholic(:

2009-03-21T04:24:00.000-07:00

Yeay! boyf promised we'd go watch it together. with his sisters and all. yeay!(:
haha. in your face farihin! XD
haha.kidding kidding. i cant wait to watch!(:
oh joy oh joy!(:

FOUND ALOT OF CUTE BIG BANG VIDS(:

2009-03-21T00:36:00.000-07:00

PART 1
PART 2
PART 3
PART 4
PART 5
PART 6
PART 7

Awwwww~ they are all soo cute!
haha. especially TOP. you can follow his technic XD
haha.i know i will(:
haha.and TOP is soo cute! may i go to the bathroom?
haha. And also the part when he came back from the bathroom.
And GD! 'lets stop here'.
damn.all of them are soo cute(:

look at only part 4.38 till the end(:
haha.damn,GD is hella cute!(:
Haha.and he managed to trick jae suk u XD

PART 1
PART 2
PART 3
PART 4
PART 5
PART 6
PART 7

They are all soo cute!(:
ooooh! and GD mulut takleh tutop sey XD

Haha. awwwww~ soo cute of jiyong!(:

isnt TOP cute? haha.

haha.kay i know,mcm mepek gitu aku post bende ni.
dah lah aku islam.
but OMG!
DAMN IT! how i wish i was yang seong an!
DAMN her! haha. okay.mepek sey.
oh amd OMG! hot sey V.I((:
haha.nawiwu jealous? XD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FATIN,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!(:

2009-03-20T03:17:00.000-07:00

Hhaa.kk. tk tau malu sey nyanyi untk diri sendiri XDD

OKAY SORRY,i'm just a little hyper. cant blame me, ITS MY BIRTHDAY!(notice my excitement)

teehee, okay so originally i couldnt go out,but thanks to nisa for calling my house and asking my mums permission,she et me. She said only today,as it is my bdae.

hmmmm. well that was good enough for me(:
anyways,OMG! YOU WILL NEVER BELIEVE WHAT I GOT!
YES! THAT HP THAT I'VE BEEN WANTING! LIKE OMG! OMG! OMG!
Hhaa.okay sorry. when i got that hp,i was in shock so i didnt get the chance to freak out XD
and now i do. haha.
anyways,my parents tricked me!
how could they?!

Do you wanna know what they did?
even if you dont,i'll tell you(:
haha. they put that gift inside a bag(a superman bag,to be presise) and wrapped that beg -.-'
so when i got the beg,it wasnt that bad. the beg was nice. the wording spoiled it though. and still i dont think i'd be caught dead wearing a beg like that.
haha.okay joking. so anyways,when i got that bag i was happy enough. hey,its the thought that counts.and hey! i am never like that.i like gifts. even though i dont think i'll be using it XD

anyways, when i got that GIFT, i was ....how do you i say this? GUILTY. yeah.. you know like a guilty pleasure. i hate myself. really.i knew i should have been happy,but there wasnt even an ounce of happiness in my body.

i just felt guilty,shameless and selfish.
my parents give me everything i want and need.And what have i given them?
nothing. i'm nothing but a worthless daughter to them. eventhough they dont say it.

anyways,i was quite, then my mum said ; say atleast something
then i say; i'm speechless.
then my sister said; no you're not. you just said something.

haha. annoying sis -.-'
anyways, i recieve that gift at exactly 12.01 am.(:
heh. then went into my room and recieved a msg from shahirah(:
thank you shahirah,

hmmmm.then woke up in the morning got a msg from long lost abg angkt,lyna bestie and jiwe XD

haha. awwwwh~he thought he was the first one. too bad XD

lol.anyways,i got ready and wet out at 10 am i think? supposedly to go to Vivo. then Nisa changed her mind,so we decided to go to bugis (eh ade org kate ktorg budget ah XD. basket sey)

Anyways, once we;ve arrived Bugis,we went to eat! heh. semue tgh lapar oi.
nisa and me were eating while msging.
(i repeat,you are so EVIL.)

haha. you know who you are,i cant believe on my birthday you dare to be evil with me! hmpph. but whatever,i still forgave you..and i dont even know why. haha.

Anyways, after that we went to take pictures! weee~(:
gmbr burok sey tapi -.-'
eh,i meant myself. yg lain lawa giler!
when i said we took pictures,i didnt mean hp and all,i mean as in you know those sticker things(:
haha.i dont know what to call it(:

anyways what happened next was funnier. Nisa had a spur of the moment thing, let me tell you what she decided to do. WE WENT TO CHANGI TERMINAL 3(:
HAHA.I KNOW! SO RANDOM AND YET SOO COOL!(:

Hhaa.beh kan,ade org tuh kan,dy ckp ktorg org budget jek gi situ.
*kan kan nisa? jom sepak dy. aku jengket ,kau amek kerusi XD *
haha. damn! he was evil and soo lame. but still he wished me. Sincerely. how sweet XD
haha. and no. i think i still hate you for being mean to me -.-'

Okay so when we arrived we ate our cake! as in me and ifah's! OMG! it was so sweet of them to buy us that cake! i love you girls oh soo much!
and thanks for a wonderful bdae. and no i wasnt even mad at any of you.
just pissed of at someone else and confused.

anyways, OMG. makan kek tu terus rase mcm nk muntah.
it was this creamy chocolate cake. it was really nice. but you can only eat it once.
hahs.so anyways, we went home after that .
awwwwh~i know.soo sad. but my curfew was 3. so yeah.

and also along the way home me and nisa mcged the same person.
hmmmmm.cmne bill kau tk melambung ah?
ouhs and he was really really really mean to me.
damn you.
i wanted to kill him.
i'd had enough sadness on my bdae.

then when i told him that i didnt want to forgive him,he finally cracked that nice side of him. which was really weird. cause i didnt think he had one XD
okay,joking. btw, where's my present? and thanks for the wish.

and wahhhh. i repeat,ktorg kwn eh? bkn strangers? cause it feels like it.

anyways,other than that i had a wonderful time.
ouhs and;

THANKS FOR THE WISH :

FADII
LIYANA
MARDHIAH
FADII
SHAHIRAH
AGIA
LYNA
FADHIL
HANAFEE XD (HAHA. 5TH PERSON!)
FITRI (I'M TOUCHED. PSL KTORG DAH LAME TK BBUAL)
IMAN
TEEWA
WIWIN
MUAZ XD (ATLAST,YOU DID IT SINCERELY)
ASLINA
SYAHMAH
LUQMAN
H?
FAIQAH
FATIHA
HUWAINA
HUDA
SYIQA
ABG TAM
FATHONA

awwwwwh~ i love all of you(:

and here are all the gifts i got(:

GIFTS I GOT FROM WHO.
the pink journal book= my sis
shopaholic= (: (the mirror came with the book)
twilight= (:
the bookmark F= my sis.
the baju= (:
LG Ice cream phone= PARENTS!
Birthday Cake= Masturah,Nisa,Munaww(:

Big Bang! <3

2009-03-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

Gee,they are soo cute! especially GD! OMG. so unfair that he got to dance with Sun Ye ah =(
and too bad TOP wasnt there. Heared that he was sick =(
poor TOP and he and Yu Bin was supposed dto be soo cute dancing side by side(:
but overall they were great, especially GD.
When he danced solo.and also when all of them swing dance(:
haha. that was soo cute! soo unnatural for Big Bang. cause they are normally more to hip hop.And i also like it when GD sticks out his tongue. i thought he only does that when he's shy or did something wrong or guilty. hmm.but nevertheless he's still cute!(:

Take notice on what song they are dancing to!
I'm suprised that Jiyong wasnt in there group -.-'
btw,it was Tae Yang,TOP and V.I. like wth?
pffft. GD is better that TOP sey. tkpe.
but i gotta admit, damn they were good.

what i cant believe is that GD's wasnt as good as them.
hmmm.then again,maybe because Seung-ri ah ah and Young Bae was in TOP's team. And we all know that GD,YB and VI are the only ones who can actually dance.

OMG! I want this phone badly! mummy & daddy.please please please!

2009-03-19T04:13:00.000-07:00

damn! i want this phone! but my dad says i have to buy it for myself. damn, doesnt he even have a tiny bit of sympathy for me? i mean really,i am only a student. i dont have much money. besides daddy cut down on my allowance. now its 20 bucks. pffft. so sad. i cant buy clothes and shoes no more. then again,i dont need shoes. but still! cant i have it for my birthday? hmpph. kay,i know i sound so whiny and pretty much spoiled right now and even carefree of my parents,but i dont care! i want that phone bad! hmpph. sorry ppl. i'm not usually like this. if you wanna judge me like this the piss off. you dont know me well.

i forgot to post this the other day(:

2009-03-17T22:21:00.000-07:00

note that ustaz tgh nanyi ape ktorg nanyi kat skolah . and that me and nisa were laughing bout something else(: ouhs and i just found ut the meaning of that song. sblm ni tk prnh tau sey. thanks ustaz for telling us(: and if you noticed, you'd hear that ustaz tersalah here and there. but other than that,i think they sound great. but kalau zaid ade lagi sedap(: and if you all dont think so, thats your problem.

anyways,today is no fun.
i'm bored to hell -.-'

my 2nd post(: heh

2009-03-17T09:41:00.000-07:00

okay,so i took this quiz(or test?) on facebook. it was really funny. i meant the results. The name of the quiz is ; What does your birthday say about you.

wanna see my results? believe me,you'll laugh.some of it are really ridiculous.

Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Loves special things. Moody.

My thought if things it has said about me; attractive personality? (lol.tk dpt ahs). Sexy? (lol.why thank you XD). Affectionate? (I'm not sure,but kak hijan said i am,so maybe i am). Shy and reserved? (haha.so not.okay shy at appropriate times).Secretive? (now that,i am).Naturally honest,generous and sympathetic? (haha. not honest. well only needed to be,generous? maybe i guess. sympathetic? yes. i sympathize you dayat XD haha.kk evil sey.aku main2 tau).Loves peace and serenity? (yes i do,i hate chaos). Sensitive to others? (haha.yes.okay FD shut up i know what you're thinking XD you lot(6j) too) Loves to serve others? (haha.tk dpt ahs. aku persuasive lagi ade ahs)Easily angered? (you mean impatient? that i am.heh)Trustworthy? (depends what you're telling me,if its abt my friends,then not)Appreciative and returns kindness? (that i also am,well return kindness jek ahs.) Observant and assesses others? (observant i am).Revengeful? (sometimes i guess). Loves to dream and fantasize? (yeahh right,like i have nothing better to do -.-'). Loves travelling? (hell yeah!).Loves attention? (heck no! only by my muum XD). Hasty decisions in choosing partners?(wtf? mane ade sey.-.-' aku ikut suka ati org jek). Loves home decors? (not really).Musically talented? (hah! so so funny).Loves special things? ( duhh. who doesnt?).Moody? (haha, sometimes? shut up u classmates XDDD & FD dont u dare put a smart-arse remark on my tagboard abt this. you too naw & nis)

haha.then i took the personality results and my result is;
Outgoing
You enjoy trying new things and like to be the life of the party.

haha yes! that is soo me(:

CAMP PUTRI(:

2009-03-17T04:18:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!
i'm baaaaack! hehh.
okay mepek sey -.-'

YEAY! finally camp is over and i'm homw and i've uploaded the pics(:
so,

DAY ONE OF CAMP;
It was fun,i was in the same group as nisa! haha.and Mardhiah,Huda,Ezzah and Nusaibah. then kater that day Nadiah came.
yeay! i love my bunkmatesor (should i say roomates?)
soo much. Huda especially. First2 senyap tibe2 bising jgk eh? XD
kay,huda i was kidding.

Then later that day i got to know more of Liyana and Shahirah.
two very funny girls. both from alsagoff. and so are Huda and Nadiah. And huwaina was it? i dont know her that much. she was quite compare to her friends XD

haha. okay so basically the first day was to only make us closer to each other. Ouhs and we had a race. Which we had to run from the bus stop cause we were late XD

haha.kcian sey ktorg. penat tau. nan kesian balloon ktorg jgk XD
for all the times we have been late.

DAY TWO;(also known as today)
it was fun-er! haha.
we got to swim! and i thought nisa' how to swim. well sort of.
the girls were soo much fun. heh. eh,lain kali klua same2 ahs k?
and damn was i tired when i reached home. then got nagged.
i dont need this shit sey.
haisshh.i...i think i miss you ?

girls,i kinda need you right now.
i dont think every step i make is going to be the right one.
so 6j,promise we'll stay together?

anyways; here are the pics;

Some of the pics yg tkleh nmpk.

2009-03-15T06:16:00.000-07:00

eeek! sorry

2009-03-15T06:14:00.000-07:00

sorry bout the pics guys. but then again kan,serves y'all right.
i'm friggin tired.
haha.tap stilll,sorry. ouhs and thanks again guys for searching for my lost ezlink card XD
sorry aku buat susah krg. especially kau lah muaz. aku tau kau complain.

good job guys(:

2009-03-15T03:55:00.000-07:00

So went to Ash-shakirin just now.
had lots of fun. the boys were full of crap.
well 2 of them in particular. nan tk tau malu btol posing2 XD

okay,i'm gonna start from the time me and nisa and aslina met up. When we arrived at jurong,we realised none of us knew how to get there XD
haha.it was soo funny.and then in the end we got lost. and didnt get to see the boys' first performance. yeah i know. awwhh~ to bad.
but soon i found out zaid wasnt there so,tkde pape sgt lah XD

haha.no offence guys krg sedap ah,tap zaid paling sedap ah(:
Anyways, when we finally arrived there,the boys were laughing i think. well whatever it was they had a mischevious grin, evil evil boys.
haha.anyways,Ustaz Dzarif was there.

& soon we found out Ustaz thought those students. Yg Andalus tu semue lah.
ouhs and we had to wait till 2pm for their 2nd performance -.-'

wahh.lame tau ktorg tunggu,and whilst we wait we helped out.
i know how thoughtful of us. XD
actually we didnt even think of doing so,Ustaz asked whether we could help around.
So we said yes. since there's nothing better to do(:

So the games were really interesting.i wanted to take part.
but ustaz said we could only help.
pffft. then i was miffed XD
haha.cant blame me.i really wanted to play the games.
it was soo funny! the stdnts ikut sukat hati dyorg jek tampal name masjid kat gmbr that were given.it was soo funny seyh.

Then after that game we relaxed for a while in one of the classrooms.
ahhh~ penat seyh. then ustaz kasi ktorg makanan.
ouuhhh.sedap sey nasi briyani dy(:

heh.then after that the boys an us and ustaz just chilled out in the classrooms for a while then suddenly azan.
beh solat zohor(:

hmmm. i dont remember much though.
its seems fague now.haha.i know STM sey.
but what to do?
i'm on cloud nine.
no not because seeimg those boys.its another reason.
heh(:

anyways; here are the pics.

there's actually more. tap malas ah(:
anyways i have to go pack now. yeay! camp!(:

Much LOVE;
Fatin

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AJI!(:

2009-03-10T04:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AJI,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!(:

haha.since i cant sing for you in person.i'll do it here. awwhh~ its been soo long since i've seen you sey. miss you dude XD
well thats all actually.ouh and that aku doa kau panjang umur(:

STUPID -.-'

2009-03-05T05:14:00.000-08:00

hmmmm.i'm soo stupid.
pffft.i hate myself.
i mean really. how dumb can i get?
5 retests? and not to mention i got a lower marks than my friend did in english.and that is the only subject i'm supposedly good at?
pffft.

ohkay.so that kinda ruined my mood.till i msged a certain someone.and we've been talking since around 5 + till 9 ? heh.
hmmm.he made me feel better(:
but other than that.i'm still sad.
my mum and dad are going to be soo freaked out.
not to mention,i write,read and speak english. well mostly.hmmph.

RANDOM

2009-03-04T03:23:00.000-08:00

Hmmm. i'm so bored right now.
bestie is studying,boyf is studying even jiwe is studying -.-'
pffft.geeks XD
hmmmm.at mcdonalds! dont feel like eating bebeh. and besides. even i am studying -.-
oh the horror.

anyways,i'm actually really tired. so i'm taking a break(:
and since i havent post anything for a long time.i decided it should be now.
cause i have nothing better to do(:

Anyways,went home with Iman today(:
Had fun.We got to know more about each other.
heh.i think we're closer now.

ouh yeah before that,rewind.
i'm going to talk about my tests.
pffft.boyf is pestering me right now. shut up you geek.

anyways,i got 42/50 for my fiqh!
wow! thats a first!
really! i have never ever scored that high for fiqh(:

pffft.
but i have to take retest for tafsir. and tauhid. whoch is tomorrow.
ughh.so far.my results are a disaster.
stupid me.

hmm.i gtg. need to study for tomorrows retests

MUCH LOVE;
Fatin

NEWater visit!(:

2009-02-25T03:34:00.000-08:00

Went to NEWater today.heh.
had loads of fun(:
hmmm,i wasnt planning to have though.i mean really,i expected to die of boredom XD
haha,i know no one can die of boredom,but hey you'll never know.

anyways; we left school at around 2.50? almost 3 i remember,caused we arrived there at 3.40. and the tour started at 4pm.

oohh! the place was soo cool!(:
really.it is! y'all should go there sometime(:

anyways,i drank the water! the bottle they gave us.at first i hesitate. but then i decide to drink it. hmm.there's not really much to say.
ouhs and i took a pic with the birthday boy!(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABIL!(:
&& I'M TALLER THAN YOU XD

ouhs and here are some of the pics that i have when we went there(:

ouhs.and i didnt put my pic with the bdae boy.gmbr burok ahs XD

conversation + 2nd post for the day

2009-02-10T03:56:00.000-08:00

boy: whats up?
girl: sky.
boy: *snickers* ha-ha very funny
girl: i know. so why'd you call?
boy: just wanted to check on you.
girl: ouhs. eh! bad news. hp pecah. well actually just the flip thingy. yg the one i use to play my songs with.
boy: *laughs* padamuke. sape suroh beli hp yg fragile.
gir: shut up.
boy: right,sorry that was rude of me *snickers*
girl: you're mean.
boy: okay okay.sorry. just ask your dad to buy you a new one.
girl: thats impossible its only months old.
biy: wth? haha.rabak.
girl: shut up.
boy: stop saying that.
girl: i'll say whatever i want to.
boy: whatever. hey,can i call you back?
girl: whatever.

*hangs up*

evil evil evil boy -.-'

woahh. dah lame tk post pape sey. eek! tekak saket -.-'

2009-02-10T03:43:00.000-08:00

wow.its been a really long time.
hahs.i didnt have much to say then. and neither do i have now.
i'm just really bored. heh. but i'm supposed to hafal al-quran.
but i'm lazy.and my throat hurts.
uff.maybe i shouldnt have screamed really loud just now.

okay anyways,tomorrow is the cheer-off! woohho!
strangely,i'm very excited(:

and i cant wait for this whole thing to blow over,then finally i can stop sleeping once i get home.anyways,nothing really happened much today.

oh wait! something horrible happened.
hp kte nye tmpt flip pecah! *cries!*

haissh.my dad is going to have a fit.
but maybe if i stay on his good side he'll buy me a new one(:

A thousand words UNSAID

Healing .♥

HI HI HI ^^

done.

oh,look at that

Hello ^^

hah

face reality

yeay yeay yeay~ (:

♥ 내 생일 축하합니다 ^^

Maybe things are different this time.

Long time

CA1 -______-

HELLO?

S . W , A , C ! :D

CLUCKING CHICKENS -.-'

MONTHS.

COULD IT BE?

I MISS YOU JAY :D

RESULTS.

2PM :D

More to life.

SHINee. Ring ding dong. lol. weird title for a song XD

I Miss you.

Iftar.

Annoying the F out of me.

I have everything. or atleast i used to...

Misses,Frustration.

He's baaaaaaaaaaaack!

GD(:

Wtv.

TIRED. =.='

It's not fair you know

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADK SYIQA(:

FASTING :D

endless.

13July(:

computer class(:

28 june and 29 june. gahh. school! XD *HAPPY SCHOOLING!*

TRANSFORMERS 2 ...revenge of the something. i dont remember.

THE KOREAN WORLD.

Thanks(:

BIG BANG PREVIEW OF 'MY HEAVEN'!(:

TAGGED :D

Big Bang is baaaaaaaaaack!(:

MALACCA[21 june]

MALACCA [20 June]

Peter pan.

Key 키 | Kim Ki Bum 김기범 | Almighty Key | Key umma | KimKey

B O R E D

Like Blair? really? hahah.

CHECK IT OUT. i have a boring life =.='

life is boriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing . haha. happy birthday,birthday boy(:

PRISONER.

=.='

thank you(:

Geee.. how long has it been?(:

EXAMS ARE OVER!

some friend you are.

you are nothing but cruel

O.o exams are near!

How long has it been? 8 days?

Arabic programme

BORED.STRESSED.HURT.CONFUSED.HAPPY? Lol. mixed feelings right now.

wahhh.soo long mahh.

B I G B A N G

SHOTA SHIMIZU(: (OR IS IT SHIMIZU SHOTA??)

ALL GONE. Like *POOOOF*

Confessions of a shopaholic(:

FOUND ALOT OF CUTE BIG BANG VIDS(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FATIN,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!(:

Big Bang! <3

OMG! I want this phone badly! mummy & daddy.please please please!

i forgot to post this the other day(:

my 2nd post(: heh

CAMP PUTRI(:

Some of the pics yg tkleh nmpk.

eeek! sorry

good job guys(:

28 june and 29 june. gahh. school! XD HAPPY SCHOOLING!

ALL GONE. Like POOOOF